I haven't danced until so sian for a performance before.
Some things make me really so pissed off man.
Like this person who tells HER people everything and everyone else doesn't know.
Then she doesn't announce it at all.
WTH.
then studio say can use...then suddenly cannot use...then suddenly can use.
Make up your mind please.
What rubbish lor...if you were not more superior than me, I would've told you off.
Borrowing my club speakers? HELLO.. we don't even have enough.
And telling me that I can go on with practice when not even half the people will be there?
WHAT RUBBISH.
And telling me that Super Junior bouncing move looks weird when everyone says it's nice?
You don't even know what's hip hop...and you tell me it's weird?

And when we're waiting for you to finish talking to a person and I just slack a bit...
and you ask me what I'm doing?
You're clever...but can you use more logic?!
c'mon lah...abit of slack time won't die... this performance isn't even waves.

WA SEH.
and got this person who totally freaked me out yesterday.
damn irritated also.

the only very fun part was after that which was this mini LA session that made me laugh like mad. As usual juniors can be so cute...HAHAHA. Was damn stunned by Johnny's choreo... later show me everything then I won't get surprised already.

SHIT LAH.
I overslept this morning. Then I missed tutorial.
Feels like shit man.
UGH.
I wanna studyyyy. And like be super disciplined for at least the next 3 months.
Can you believe it!?!?!?
3 months to graduation...then we can scream "FREEDOM!!!"
I need to work on BD!!!
MST coming and I haven't started on anything. SHIT SHIT SHIT.

BMG is stupid.
=.=

it sucks to wake up for an 8am class.
I wanna sleep so badly~~ T^T
It's only 9.40 am and I can't wait to go home already.

AHHHH.

end school end school.

I lost motivation for school. and it's the last sem...this is badddd.
I need to work harder!!!

be very envious of this baby.
He's Rain's godson!!! and MBLAQ's Mir's nephew.
AHHH. so adorable!!!

We're supposed to do this business management game thing today.
It's so boring...
why do they put useless things into a module that's already useless enough?
I mean, hello, in reality, business is not so simple. So what if we're doing a simulation game. It's just teaching us how to make decisions.. but in real life, decisions are more complicated than just a game.
Very funny.... this contradicts with what the career talk person said yesterday. To treat life as a game. LOL.
If I treat life as a game, I'd just fly to Korea right now...
then I don't have to do BD anymore.
stupid FYP.

I actually planned to do BD during the 3 hours break.
And I didn't do anything in the end.
I went home, slept, ate and found out there's only half an hour left to do work.
half an hour...HAIYYY.
might as well just slack...so that's what I did.

I feel damn lost now.
everytime during lecture and tutorial...I'd write down notes but my brain isn't moving.
I keep feeling super stoned...
like my brain only starts moving when I'm in dance.
SHIT.
This is bad.
Actually...I'm also starting to stone during dance.
Is this a symptom of no more drive after waves????
RAHHH.

It's the last semester.
I need to work hard.
Who would want to employ someone with such terrible grades!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm lost now.
super lost....

AT LAST!!!
AFTER SO LONG...
I'm updating properly!! So so so...it's weird to talk about waves now since it's been over for almost more than a week. Well, this production/ dance concert...was the most difficult I've ever done. It feels like we've pulled through alot because of so much "There's no show" stuff going on. And also alot of...not putting enough effort and alot of clashes and lack of time. Sure, we had really little time on our hands but I still think everything was a good job done. In general... of course we each have some regrets about our own happiness like... cut steps or whatever. Although we lack in a lot of areas, we're still learning so let's not be so hard on ourselves and give ourselves a little pat on our shoulder(: I think there were many things that improved from Waves 13 to Waves 14. At least I think LA improved(: WAHHH. touched man when I saw the video and I can see all the control and accents. Although the formation was super cui!!!! I sincerely thank my dancers for the effort they have put in(: And ahmad commented about the choreo and stuff... AHHHHH. the feel was there for the choreo... I was like AHHHHH! I think Janice must be very happy too...

Vanilla Twilight was an extremely challenging song because it lacks strong beats unlike normal LA Hip Hop songs with doom-doom-doom-ka-doom-ka. So for myself, to be able to choreo with feel for this song is ahhhh...my own breakthrough. AND another breakthrough for myself is that...I danced for 2 funk items...waacking and popping. I've never seriously danced funk...cos...hahahhaha. I'm more to hip hop. I had fun for both of these items...thanks to heng thye and xiang for having me in the choreo((:

This might be the last Waves concert for me. But it ended nicely. Really good memories...
This is super dramatic but really, after curtains closed I just started crying. LOL. half happy and half sad...like this might be the last time I see the audience from the stage... last time I'm performing with SDZ? damn sad...

Seniors and juniors, GOOD JOB for waves. Whoever's reading my blog ...this is to you.
Don't mind about the mistakes that you made. As long as you learn from it, you'll be able to be a better dancer. You still have 1 or 2 years to push yourself. so JIAYOU!! I hope to see a doper Waves 15(:

Thanks to all who came to support me! Loved the sunflowerrrr!!
credits to elizabeth for taking so many pictures!!! and they're not bad mannnn....

NOW FOR PICTURESSSSS(:

today was combined run half costume.
AHHHH.
It seems like it's getting worse each week.
Can totally see that Ryan was not happy today...
heart shattered man... I kept doubting myself. Felt super low...then have to go dance waacking.
WAHHHH force myself to be happy... this emotion is supposed to belong to the clowns!!
I'm a DOLL!
Oh well...very ji dong today. Suddenly realised actually there's quite abit of stuff today I wasn't happy about.
Super mixed feelings....felt like crying.
UGHHH. Get over it man... WE CAN DO IT.
Be positive!!!((:

After run today, went to PS with bell to see if we could catch a glimpse of *sings Almost Paradise*LEE MIN HO!
it was damn crazy seriously...there were like so many fans they had to switch the escalator to going up so that no one could go down anymore. And since all the food were at the basement, we still had to go down to eat. It was almost 4pm and we didn't eat anything!!!!!!!AHHH. So we just went down the escalator that was going against our direction. I was like "Lift your legs!!!" to bell...cos it was easier to get down that way.HAHAHHAH. Then we decided to eat first before going to see if Lee Minho had arrived. Then we tried squirming our way through. And then announcement was made that THE EVENT WAS CANCELLED. Not like I'm disappointed...dunno if Bell was though. It's not 2pm so I'm totally ok...HAHA. There was a very kind security guard who told us that it was cancelled cos we didn't hear the announcement. HAHHA. Then when we went out, we saw some fans running outside. So we thought LMH was outside...so we walked. I didn't wanna run...HAHAHHA. And in the end!!

We found out that all of em were runnning like mad just for LMH posters =.=

WAHHHHH CRAZY!!!!

But made me think of how I used to chase 5566...HAHHAHA.
Now think about it...that was mad!~

Watched SYTYCD "Mad" choreo...
WAHHHH BEAUTIFUL...love the choreo....
my favourite choreo is still "Bleeding Love"...so emotional. Watch le can cry.
haha.

ahhhhh...waves waves waves...
push push push.

Waves 14 + Achiever's Function = stress
WASEHHHHH.
I need to help mix song and choreograph for Achiever's Function a.k.a MJ perf.
Omgeeee...and the parts that need to mix are so weird sometimes. I have a hard time figuring out. And then June Lin wants Thriller to end with a bang...then the back part of Thriller is like super long. Wavelength different... how to cut short!!!
Sian ah...then it's like the Beat It last part... want short but later says too short.
ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
haiyy. then need to choreo Billie Jean 1 min plus cut!!
I'm going to be superwoman...

plus LA... dunno if anything is going to change. then need to add choreo?!!!
AH... this totally sucks...
then popping also damn cui~~~~

and like WTH....
anyone can like understand abit anot??
my mum keeps nagging at me nonstop summore...

SIAN LEH.
why in the world am I complaining anyway?
almost 2 months of holiday...supposed to be enough.
But when I go back to school...I totally have no mood. Just waiting for school to end and go dance. Wanna study hard but feel like...
I'm going to graduate soon. Probably no more dancing for Waves?
WAH.
I think until so far.
But really I just lose all my enthusiasm when I think of graduation.
I only wanna graduate cos I really hate projects.
I'm still thinking if I actually like Banking.
When we all go out of SP, it's like time to face reality.
work work work.
I feel like I cannot get enough of dancing cos I haven't reached the level I wanna reach.
But it doesn't mean work then cannot dance right?
SIAN AH. Why think until so far!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOHOO.
I actually can cut music properly.
MJ Billie Jean and Beat It was cut todayyyy...
not bad man...doesnt sound weird at all.YAYYYYYY.

currently super addicted to 4minute's 'MUZIK'...
And their performances are so addictive.
Just like 2NE1~~~
And I got my 2NE1 CD !!!!!!!!!!
Thanks shinaaaa....
I like the whole album...AHHHH~~

I think I listen to alot of 2pm...
I dreamt of wooyoung in that weird hip-hop cum hanbok costume in Wild Bunny.
and we were talking...
dunno about what...but we were conversing.HAHAHHA.
why of all people wooyoung?! not that it's bad...
wooyoung's cute...haha. Jaebeom's cuterrrr~~~
fangirl fangirl~