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Anne. 250490. SDZ. SIM-UOL Biz. I love my family and friends and DANCE. I'm a B2UTY,Blackjack, V.I.P, 4nia and Jaywalker.

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Wednesday, March 16, 2011 I watched finish Dream High today.
this is like the best kdrama I've ever watched...
haiy.... the drama makes me wanna fulfill my dream.
but it might never happen...which makes me cry at some of the scenes cos I could relate to how they feel.
recently I've been listening to kim soo hyun's dreaming...
I didn't know the lyrics were sooo meaningful.
It made me cry alot today.
hahahha....
cos it's totally what I'm feeling now.

about dance.

about performing.

about my future.

I sometimes feel like giving up, to the point that I feel that maybe I don't have enough passion to move on...or probably no talent nor discipline to even persist. Which makes me feel extremely frustrated because I remember saying that it's an undying passion...

and recently I've been feeling that I got an attitude problem.
again....

(T^T)

and this attitude problem is still stopping me from moving forward. Which really is a pain in the ass...

I can't seem to describe it...
because I don't think people can even understand.

When I explain to myself, it's like my own response to myself is like, "Ahhh...that's your problem. Too bad lah... Who ask you never persist earlier, then now you regret."
seriously, I'm soooo discouraged now...
I don't need encouragement cos now what I'm going through is an inner struggle..and it's only me that can overcome it.

I just hope that people around me understand that I'm having a hard time within myself, and I'm trying hard not to get to the point where I just lose it and become not myself. And if I'm not around, it's mostly I'm doing other things to deal with not only this problem...but other problems as well. I'm going to be 21...the responsibilites are more than that. dammit.

I'm trying not to take pity on myself..because it's just going to be more tough on myself.