君がいるだけで、僕は飛べるよ。

2011-04-13T21:20:00.002+08:00

haven't updated for so long! is there anything to even update? HAHA. nooooo. cos I'm too busy mugging for my upcoming exams. and guess what! I failed prelims! WAHAHA. ok....at least I know I failed 2 modules... I'm not sure about the other 2 yet... I'm so strapped for time I haven't gone for training til last monday. AND MAN... I totally think I can't dance anymore. SUCKS. I'm so gonna go for classes and train after my exams. (T^T) can't do anything now...which makes me wanna cry..cos I really don't like studying!!! and I'm still working! *claps hands* I need to reward myself with a trip to korea...but I got no money now (T^T) by the way, I joined this kpop competition. YA AGAIN. but by myself. I dunno what to say about the votes system...I'm so sick of it I don't wanna ask ppl to vote anymore...Votes system is like rating who's more popular lah! lame anot? anyway, get in then get in...if don't then whatever lah.... OMGGGGGGGGGGG. AND WHO DOESN'T KNOW ABOUT THE NEW KPOP GIRL GROUP, RANIA IS JUST MISSING OUT ON LIKE...THE BUTTER IN THE TOAST!!! THEY'RE SO DOPE...now they're like my 2nd after 2NE1. And they prepared for so long and put in so much hard work...now all the controversies on their music and dance. I'm not for it lah...but the thing is that...they're dope...so in a dance point of view, it's totally good man...WHY THEY SCOLD THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ahh...I feel so sian..tomorrow got 830 lesson..thank God is marketing...if not I'll sleep.

2011-04-13T21:20:00.000+08:00

http://youtu.be/8S5wPjE46lw

I whine a lot...

2011-03-25T12:44:00.002+08:00

these days I've been sooo worked up...

let's see ...
there's this thing I'm really pissed about.
which is my uni classmate...I'm not even that close to her cos she doesn't come to class all the time. like after the first few weeks she totally went MIA.
and there was once during sociology class that she came...
amanda and I were like so shocked. we asked her why she so long never come.
In the end it was because the lecturer was boring so she decided to study herself?
OMG.
like ermmm...we think he's boring too.
but it's just an obligation what...if you dun wanna miss anything, then you should just come.
then sociology test also...
OMG
to believe that I was so kind to keep helping her...but everything was to her benefit.
then there was this once I couldn't go for marketing class but she said she was going...so I smsed her to help me collect my assignment...because that assignment, I was deprived of sleep during waves period...and I chiong it like mad. But I couldn't go for the last 2 marketing classes because I had family commitments. So I just ask her to help me like FOR ONCE. And she didn't even reply my message.

and then after so long, she suddenly ask me for marketing notes!!!
and it's those big big topics...
ask me to meet her to pass the notes...
WHAT?! then I have to meet her twice...cos one to pass notes, the other to get back my notes?!
so I told her I won't be free...if want, I can scan to her...
OMG....I'm crazy seriously. Why am I so kind to a person who doesn't take responsibility for her own education! and everytime I ask her why she never come for marketing lesson..it's because she overslept. Anyway, so I didn't scan to her the whole thing...cos the notes seriously ALOT. but...I just scanned parts lo... I still scanned leh!!! HAIYO.
And I decided not to be a pushover...so I smsed her,"This is gonna be the last time man...next time come to class k!" Well apparently, there are no more classes except revision workshops. And she cheerily replied that...
UGHHHHHH.

I have a choice not to scan to her but....
we have to be kind right?

actually, I'm starting to think that I'm dumb.
BUT THIS IS GONNA BE THE LAST TIME.
WHEN I TURN 21, I GOTTA CHANGE.

I'm wondering if some of my other friends treat me as a pushover.
YOU GO BANG THE WALL.

seriously...
I think I help people around me until I get pissed off cos I don't wanna help but I have to...
then I get all frustrated about getting irritated with them.
WTH.
what is wrong mannnn!!!!
AISHHHH.

dreaming

2011-03-16T17:17:00.003+08:00

I watched finish Dream High today.
this is like the best kdrama I've ever watched...
haiy.... the drama makes me wanna fulfill my dream.
but it might never happen...which makes me cry at some of the scenes cos I could relate to how they feel.
recently I've been listening to kim soo hyun's dreaming...
I didn't know the lyrics were sooo meaningful.
It made me cry alot today.
hahahha....
cos it's totally what I'm feeling now.

about dance.

about performing.

about my future.

I sometimes feel like giving up, to the point that I feel that maybe I don't have enough passion to move on...or probably no talent nor discipline to even persist. Which makes me feel extremely frustrated because I remember saying that it's an undying passion...

and recently I've been feeling that I got an attitude problem.
again....

(T^T)

and this attitude problem is still stopping me from moving forward. Which really is a pain in the ass...

I can't seem to describe it...
because I don't think people can even understand.

When I explain to myself, it's like my own response to myself is like, "Ahhh...that's your problem. Too bad lah... Who ask you never persist earlier, then now you regret."
seriously, I'm soooo discouraged now...
I don't need encouragement cos now what I'm going through is an inner struggle..and it's only me that can overcome it.

I just hope that people around me understand that I'm having a hard time within myself, and I'm trying hard not to get to the point where I just lose it and become not myself. And if I'm not around, it's mostly I'm doing other things to deal with not only this problem...but other problems as well. I'm going to be 21...the responsibilites are more than that. dammit.

I'm trying not to take pity on myself..because it's just going to be more tough on myself.

2011-03-10T12:28:00.000+08:00

4 MORE DAYS TO END OF PRELIMS.

CHIONG.

SOOOO BEAST.

random post at 1:02am

2011-03-08T00:26:00.002+08:00

HAHAA.
been too busy to be online. or rather, I've been logging into twitter and facebook and reading this random blog about seoul only.
prelims are here.
I'm crazy...I got this kpop performance along with prelims.
but prelims arent counted.
I'm still serious about it of course, still studying and hoping for the best.
If I flunk, I will just study harder. Watch dragon zakura again then might have more motivation:P or maybe switch to watching God of Study.

Anyway, my emotions have been on a rollercoaster ride these days.
like as if I'm in a mid-life crisis at 21...I'M NOT 21 YET THOUGH.
I feel like I'm aging cos I suddenly care about what I'm going to do with the rest of life.
Or rather, I always cared about what I'm going to do with the rest of my life but it's the first time in my life that I felt so helpless and hopeless about what I can do.
I got no money....very little talent...passion dying out...What am I supposed to do?
Actually there are alot of things which is like MY PROBLEM...
like I wanna dance in Japan cos... the environment there just forces you to work hard. Not that I've been there before but from what I've heard..Japanese dancers are just so hardworking.
but you don't need an environment to work hard, if you have passion, regardless of the circumstances, you'll still work hard.
LOL. I'm totally complaining and then shooting myself in the face.
And like how I joke with my best friend about.... I wanna be a kpop idol.
LOL. but actually it ain't a joke...I've had that idea since I was in sec school. but crazyyy...
seriously, when you grow older and start to figure. Kpop industry isn't a place for people who arent willing to give up every aspect of their life. It's just moving too fast and too saturated.
but generally, if you don't have passion for music or don't have enough talent, just don't step in lah. I mean, if I had a chance I'd do it, but hahahha hello. I ain't Korean...and I ain't gonna give my all to be a kpop idol. Working to be a kpop idol is like buying a lehman brother bond. And...there are so many underrated singers. LIKE SO MANY!!!!!!!!!!!!! Navi is seriously underrated...how can people who can really sing be so underrated?!!! Oneway is another underrated group. I hope music industry does some justice to them.

And after all that complaining, I still don't know what I wanna do...
HAHAA.
I just know that sometimes...
when you're confused and you cry, you end up asking yourself, "WALAU. Why did I cry ah? This thing is as simple as that!" Humans really do complicate things.

All I know is that God has a reason for everything he has in place for you. so just trust him and go with the flow...
these days so emooooooo. (T^T) is it lack of travelling? Need to go out and see the world's so big.

My back has been aching so badly cos of late nights....
My shoulders just tense so much especially in the morning...gotta go sleep soon.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

House Rulez...is so good. I didn't realise until now. How lag can I be!?
Their songs are so good to study with...

And I think we're better than them doesn't mean I don't like them...
I'm not two-faced.
I don't know why I'm explaining myself but ....
it's just friendly competition(: and I really mean friendly.
so I still mix with them cos...we really get along.hahhahaahha.
it's hard to find passionate kpop fans these days.

SDD vol.2

2011-02-28T12:12:00.002+08:00

hahhaa.

this SDD was kindda fun.
cos I think we did our best.
though we didn't get in but it was really enjoyable.
thanks to mianbao and xiang for having me in their team.
though I haven't been waacking for long but... I think they've been quite patient with me.
HAHA.
and watching SDD vol.2 this time was somehow quite heartwarming.
I dunno why..I suddenly feel that, at this kindda events, we can feel the dancers' passion.
The rain didn't stop us from wanting to perform on the big stage.
AHAHHA. although it was trying to play with us cos after we moved indoors it just stopped raining. LIKE WHATTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really liked the Thai group that performed.
so hardcore and dope! it feels like their team has got alot of passion and team spirit.
and I still love House Head's piece cos it's so cool... I hope they win. HAHHAHA. like internal bias only :P but they're really good. And I think Flair brothers was super dope too...

ahhh.
after this, another kpop dance perf and I have to concentrate on my studies...haiy.
sian sian sian.
wednesday got prelim paper..and I'm still kindda slacking. RAH.

hard time

2011-02-13T23:04:00.002+08:00

I'm having a hard time.

like...

I feel like...

I don't want to dance anymore. although I want to.
passion gone dunno why....
passion change to something else?
i dunno

and

I dun wanna study. cos..I'm so sian.

and

got two people keep quarelling in my house keep quarrelling.

and

I dunno how to talk to my dad

and

......

so much stuff....

bleak bleak bleak

2011-01-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

I really dunno what I really want...

(tell me what you want what you really really want~~)

stop the fangirling..maybe I'll know.
HAHHAHA.

WHAT YOU WANNA DO!?

I shall concentrate on SDD.
spam waacking videos spam spam spam.

feeling not very funky

2011-01-08T13:49:00.002+08:00

recently I have been feeling like maybe I dunno what it takes to dance.
don't know if it's because I haven't been so involved anymore like how I used to be.
):

ain't doing that well in school either.
cos it's so hard to take time out to study.
(probably cos I'm not so disciplined, so it's my fault lah)
I think it's also cos my toddler nephew's around. Have to help my mum look after him.
My mum has to do all the housework and cook summore.

stress.

haven't been feeling very happy about so many things.
fangirling to keep my sanity.
LOL.

haiy.

anyway, joining waacking with xiang and mianbao for SDD.
stressss ahhh.
I don't really waack. so I have to work very hard to get the feel.
have to spam myself with waacking videos already.
I mean since joining, then better do the best I can..
and maybe it's a good time to improve my waacking cos I like waacking, but I never really concentrate on it since my hip hop is not that good either.

let's hope everything goes ok...
2011...
good or not..
we'll still get over it.
JIAYOU!

(:

2011-01-03T16:17:00.001+08:00

OOH the darlings.

Let me see ya lalalala.

2011

2011-01-01T22:51:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year!!!

it's new year's eve! again...

2010-12-31T12:16:00.002+08:00

hello!

New Year Eve today!!

put your hands up if you're high!!!

LOL. I'm not...=.=

Anyway, since it's the eve, it's an opportunity to give thanks for what I've received this whole year. There's a whole load of rubbish that happens as usual but you can't forget the good things too. But it has been a generally good year... it's how to good events neutralise the bad. Seeing BEAST neutralised all the rubbish. HAHHAHAH. fangirl mindset. Ohhh ya...and TBG too...

Seeing BEAST is like the best moment of 2010.

And I'm never going to forget how I felt at that time.

HAPPINESS(:

except that Junhyung didn't smile at me (T^T)

or else...2010 would probably have been AWESOME!!!!

and of course many other happy moments like many good concerts! TBG, Recital, FB prod...

and... enjoyable trainings like M-FIG SDD training and More than Five kpop training.

I feel that I am most passionate about dance when I try my best at it. Unfortunately, SDD is too near waves. I would wanna join again...

May your 2010 end well, and 2011 begin well.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

2010-12-25T10:48:00.003+08:00

hahahahhahha
ryan higa is like soooooooooo funny.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

christmas eve

2010-12-24T13:42:00.002+08:00

I need to find a way to run away from this country next christmas.
because there is really nothing better to do here.
and very expensive if you can do something...

hello people...
enjoy your christmas(:

I wish I was in seoul or tokyo.

it's holidays!

2010-12-21T11:47:00.002+08:00

holidays but very sian!
3 tests to study for.
Lots of catching up to do.
then have work):

I need some "me" time.
LOL.

must be too used to being alone while my mum is not around.
now I'm feeling so busy...
have to help her take care of my baby nephew...

AHHHH!!!!

I wanna studyyyyy... and just chill.

yesterday's training was exciting(:
though I thought I didn't like anan's piece the first song...but now...I kindda like it cos it's so cool.hahhaa.

They call me J.O 그리고 K.E.R

2010-12-19T20:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNHYUNGGG!!~~~ <3 <3

I don't care if you didn't care about my "junhyung oppa saranghaeyo" you're still the B2ST in BEAST!!!(: If I ever get to meet you again, I'll say the same thing! HAHA.

(my fangirl mode is on. Leave if you don't like fangirls)

been going through B2uties tumblrs.

whole load of junhyung. haha.

and really crazy fans who post as if they are really writing to junhyung.

I laughed so hard because of how crazy they were...not that it's bad...but I laughed also because, WOOTS, we share the same feeling.

junhyung is so swagggg!!! how can you not love him?!

charismatic stage presence<3

pikajun<3

junhyung in dance break in bad girl mv<3

junhyung while isolating his head in mystery<3

junhyung when he raps can't breathe like freeze in shock<3

junhyung rapping in easy sincere version<3

junhyung's last pose in soom<3

junhyung's bug dance<3

junhyung in beautiful mv<3

junhyung's kkab V.I.U dance<3

junhyung with porcupine hair, red hair, black hair, curly hair, blond hair<3

junhyung in prince charming white suit in beast airlines<3

junhyung's bboy moves in special<3

diane has agreed to give me junhyung as my boyfriend for today(:

YAY.

I'm attached today. HAHHAA.

Junhyung oppa, SARANGHAE!

2010-12-19T01:29:00.003+08:00

If we could have a concert that we could dance anything, kpop would be on the list.
I wanna do BEAST.
LOL.

Fbodz production was dope!!
Entertained me so much...
though I felt kindda sad today...it totally lifted my mood(:
YEAHHHH~~

I'm not your TAMAGO>:(

psychology of a fangirl

2010-12-13T16:32:00.003+08:00

AHHHHH~
BEASTTTT~~~
BEAST this BEAST that...
I apologize to my friends around me who keep hearing me talk about them:P

I liked Beast ever since their first single "Bad Girl".
Not that crazy but yeahhh...thought they were good.
And I took an interest in this rookie group cos Doojoon used to be part of the reality show Hot Blood where the members of 2pm and 2am were chosen.
Anyway, I have no idea, but I listened to every song that ever came out.
Then, going to their autograph session made me an even bigger fan.
OOPS.
Seriously, before that, I wasn't even that crazy about them.

Anyway, about fangirling.
Doing it ever since primary school...the days where there was Backstreet Boys and Westlife, to secondary school where I was mad over 5566 then w-inds. Then I stopped after getting into poly cos there wasn't much to fangirl about anymore.. except maybe NewS,which was still a secondary school thing. HAHA. And then after awhile, it was 2pm.. then now Beast.

What's this man? HAHA.

Boy band members are like the ideal type of guy we'd wish for.
Put your hands up if you dreamt of dating Taeyang!
Not me lahhh.. I like Gdragon. haha.
But it's sad how in reality, meeting a person of this ideal is almost impossible. Soooo... we fangirl.
LOL! but but but..obviously, Taeyang has his own flaws we don't even know of...therefore that idol image that we constantly think they have. Properly packaged Kpop idols...hahhaha.

(And that's probably one of the reasons why I wanna be a kpop idol and I don't want as well)

but hey...even if I'm crazy over Jay Park, doesn't mean that I have to get someone exactly like him. That's like scary. cos if I have that standard, I'll probably fangirl til I'm 80 and Jay might not even be on youtube for me to watch. HAHHA. But it would be nice(: which reminds me I haven't downloaded Jay's version of Nothin' on You.

and fangirls do fangirl about girl groups.
cos it's unfulfilled dream for many! (like me..haha)
like oh mannn... I wanna rap like CL!! I wish I was as pretty as Yoona! (though I don't like Yoona...but Yoona is like signature member of SNSD)
The CL wish is mine. The Yoona wish isn't. hahhaha.
Was asking Shina which girl group she wanna be in if she could... she chose after school...and I wanted to be in 2ne1. And both of us agreed that 4minute would be a good second choice. HAHA.

but Kpop industry is saturated! I don't even check out the new rookie groups anymore.
All of em sound the same. At least most of em...
The last potentially good girl group was probably SISTAR.
and the last potentially good boy band was INFINITE.
If Kpop groups were products, they're probably at the maturity stage of the product life cycle.
Soon it will be decline and then idol groups will move to another country?
Just like how Boyzone expired and there is no more Boyzone now.
The songs will be reminisced like classics and everyone of that generation will know how to sing it. Just like how everyone knows how to sing Westlife's My Love...next time everyone will know how to sing Sorry Sorry and Nobody. And then only the strong groups and singers will stay like...Gummy, Supreme Team, Brown Eyed Soul and hopefully Beast, CNblue and FT island.

SIDETRACK!!!

BEAST AIRLINES ENDED YESTERDAY!!!
Youtube is full of fancams now.
HAHA.
I really like 2 fancams. LOL.

OMG JUNHYUNG LOOKS SO SINCERE ~~ though he's just lip syncing Yoseob's part.
AHHH. I'm melting like ice cream under the hot sun. hahahhah.

omgggg...it's like the first part of soom. but apparently this is for Clenching A Tight Fist. HAHHAHA. and all the Junhyung B2uties are saying they wanna jump on him. HAHHAHAHHAHA. omggg...so funny.

BEAST had like white shiny costumes. GOSH. Like Prince Charmings<3 I like how Junhyung hits in Soom and his aura when he walks out for his rap at the end.

Heard that international fans flew all the way to Korea to wait and see if anyone's going to sell their tickets for the concert. Those who didn't get any just stood outside the stadium listening to their songs. Gosh...Actually I'd be happy with that too. HAHHAHAH.

My top 10 favourite BEAST songs:
1. Soom (ahhhh love the choreo and concept toooo muchhh...so attitude!)
2. Beautiful (so happy listening to this...like they're singing it to me^^)
3. Lightless
4. I'm Sorry
5. Shock (hahhah good memories(: )
6. Clenching A Tight Fist
7. Easy Sincere Version
8. Yet
9. Lights Go On Again
10. V.I.U

I'm a fangirl. HAHA.

):

2010-12-09T19:08:00.004+08:00

):
emo

emo

emo

emo.

what was wrong?
I think I did ok. but I don't think they paid attention to me):
probably cos I was one of the last people.
and I wear so anyhow..cos I had school...
I didn't know that only that day had the walk in auditions):
so I just rushed there...
had to walk in cos I registered online...but apparently, I might have registered wrongly?
(T^T)
that's not the most upset thing.

anyway, after all this...I feel emo suddenly about alot of things.
damn bad habit.
I'll be fine... I think.

I'm trying to suppress my fears. Just let me):
I keep having contradicting feelings):
like maybe I don't wanna do what I wanna do kindda thing.
maybe it's just some kind of pride thing...
I'm not really upset?? maybe it's just my pride?
I dunnoooooooooo.
I'm bringing in pride...
GOSH STUPID ISSUE.
scared of getting in and not getting in(T^T)
emotions going haywire.

I don't understand a lot of things.
I don't understand
I don't understand~

MAMA 2010

2010-11-29T17:09:00.002+08:00

stupid awards.
super predictable results.
Seriously...
how can DJ DOC win Epik High, Supreme Team and Outsider?
Outsider is like the dopest rapper of Korea and he didn't win best rap performance?!
rubbish.
And 2pm won best boy band??
ERMMM. Of course I wish BEAST could win...but SuJu definitely beat both in terms of popularity. Then why they didn't win?!
I'm 2ne1 biased but they win almost everything?!
I'm ok with it actually.
And their performance was good(:
But the mic was terrible!!!

2pm's performance was daebak! good concept and everything...
But I still don't like "I'll Be Back".
Taeyang won best solo act or something. INSTEAD OF RAIN.
But Rain won the best solo dance act so it's not that bad.
"I Need A Girl" is starting to get addictive. So is "I'll Be There".

I see that the military concept is totally in.
Look at all the new singles like Soom, I'll Be Back, and I My Me Mine.
costumes all military.
woooooots.
anyway, 2ne1's stylist won the best stylist thing.
couldn't agree more. Unconventional hip hop style is da bomb mannn!!!~~

I'm addicted to this Japanese girl group Perfume after watching MAMA!!
Didn't know techno pop could sound so fresh(:
and at least they're not like AKB48.
Perfume can dance quite well as compared to all those big groups like AKB48 and Morning musume.

JYP audition next week!
still can't decide what to sing...apparently we have to prepare 3 songs in case judges want to us to perform one more time. HAHHAHA. I'm going to dance first..
ANYTHING LAH.
let's just leave it up to Heaven's will.
nervous):

나 어떡해요 언니

2010-11-23T21:16:00.003+08:00

나 어떡해요 언니!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STRESS.

AHHHH.

AHHHH.

AHHH X 865932641 times.

wash clothes,hang clothes,iron clothes, vacuum floor, mop floor,boil water etc.
study, work, dance. assignment, assignment, more assignments...
exercise.

exhausted.

wanna sleep.

I might be asking for too much.
but I just want a holiday ):

or someone please listen to me ):
listen to what I'm not saying...

Mums are amazing.

now I'm feeling so fly like Yong JunHyung

2010-11-22T11:29:00.003+08:00

my blog song rocks.
HAHHAAH. the best parody everrrrr.
especially since it's about junhyung.

two songs are stuck in my head now.

Now I'm feeling so fly like yong junhyung~~~~

AND

I whip ma hair back and forth! I whip ma hair back and forth!

Willow smith is talented man...
She's so young but SWAG.
did you watch her video?? GOSH.
best hip hop video ever cos it's creative and not sick like the others.

RECITAL WAS DOPENESS.
I wanna dance now....
that's why I'm skipping my night class today to go for training.

I realise that when the stress gets to me. I blog alot. and surf internet alot.
Have to study now. Test tomorrow.
If I fail, means I'm really dumb cos it's open book (T^T)

I did my first online shopping

2010-11-20T15:37:00.002+08:00

I just bought this shirt from Gmarket. GOSH.
I hope it goes well.
It's my first time doing an online transaction.
Kindda scary. >.<

went to prologue today to buy stationery.
OMG 6bucks gone.
I'm so broke nowwww (T^T)
and I keep wanting to eat!~~~~
apparently the increase of the stress hormone cortisol will increase appetite.
maybe I'm stressed.
hahahha...and I haven't started studying today!!

ANYWAY, emma watson is on vogue.
Super long interview on her.
and vogue is really nice! that's what I call real fashion. The rest is kindda rubbish.
If you want pure fashion, have to see vogue. Dope!~
Reading vogue while christmas songs are playing in the store.
Nice.
I feel the festive season already. But the holidays aren't here yet.
It's going to be another hectic few weeks.
Can you believe it?!! Christmas is coming soon~~~
Means more pigging out. arghhhh. love-hate relationship with that.
It's going to be the end of the year.
Time for reflections soon... I hope the year ends well.
Last year was kindda depressing...ughhh.. mood swings. Hope it doesn't happen again.

I suddenly want a caramel coloured blazer.
but obviously, there isn't anywhere in Singapore that sells this.
Maybe the high end stores? HAHHA. like I have money to buy it.

And I want all the new Beast albums!!! Maybe wait a while more...and see if they come for another fanmeet or whatever.

2ne1 MOVED!!!

this is dara's new room..

pic from allkpop...haha

sooooooo nice.

I wish my room was like that):

me like wooden flooring and big window.

If I tweet

2010-11-19T18:11:00.002+08:00

If I tweet, this blog is probably going to be left hanging.
It's scary cos I dunno who reads my blog anyway.
So...I'm like "tweeting" on my blog.

LOL.

but I don't have an iphone! So no point having twitter.
I'll only be tempted to get one because I wanna follow Junhyung's twitter.
:P
FANGIRL STALKER.
hahhahaha.
BEAST was on music bank today! I watched thanks to Diane from IMP7CT who told me.
If not, I'll not even turn on the TV.
Recorded music bank!! BEAST sang 3 songs!! YAYYY.
Cuteness overload.
and yes ahhh!! at last I have a friend who is a B2UTY.

Sorry, I'm a fangirl.
I talk about idol groups all the time (especially BEAST)

I'm in a fangirl mood like 85% of the time.
15% is in other moods.
I still share probably 10%, 5% is private.
10% is mostly random? HAHAHHAHHAHA.
ok, weird proportions.

I AM BROKE.
living on instant noodles and bread most of the time now.
aishhh.
when the year end sale comes...then it's time to shop again.
I'M SO BUSY NOW.
open book law test next tuesday. marketing quiz next friday, before christmas, another marketing quiz plus assignment. after christmas, marketing test.
holidays are a goner now.

goodbye. going to eat.

I'm in a mood where I wanna sing Beautiful:P

after listening to BEAST

2010-11-17T21:43:00.002+08:00

I've decided to be a happy person.

Not that I'm not.

But...

hahhahaha.

feels like a rollercoaster sometimes.

I LOVE THE NEW BEAST ALBUM(:

2010-11-15T11:27:00.002+08:00

last sat, went with minh to airport to study!

such a fun day cos we studied and had alot of fun.

mannnn, I wanna do it again.

blog's kindda dead.

lazy to update.

ANYWAY,

kpop dance battle was fun though I was disappointed that we didn't win.

the groups were strong.

argh.

I love More Than Five.

it's the most fun competition that I took part in.

Not saying the previous competitions werent fun, just that they were more serious.

lol.

BEAST new album Lights Go On Again is out!(:

yayyy.

new songs in my ipod.

it's already running outta space.

They're all so cute in the new video.

JUNHYUNG~~~

lol.

I'm currently addicted to playing The Sims 3 on my cousin's iphone.

It's been 10 years since I played The Sims...and I still like it.

hahhahahha.

Friendship

2010-10-09T20:28:00.002+08:00

The deepest friendships have nothing to do with proximity; they aren't based on how long we've known each other but on how well we love each other. - paige williams

I LOVE BEAST

2010-10-07T11:29:00.003+08:00

I love the BEAST song on my blog.
Nothing's better than the previous albums man.
Newest album's nice. But I prefer the last.
This song reminds me of meeting BEAST. AHHHHHH.
Junhyungggg~~~~~
sorry...can't help but fangirl.

ANYWAY,
I can't believe how dumb I am man.
I just missed an 8.30am lesson cos I thought it's supposed to be 12pm.
WASTE MY ATTENDANCE FOR NOTHING.
RAH!
I should mug today...

this song speaks of my emotions!!!
wooots. EXILE!!

my first battle(:

2010-10-04T17:29:00.002+08:00

Money in the cap was such a dope event!!
Every competitor was so good in their own way..
I have to work harder too!!

And I had my first battle!!
hahahha.
that was my aim because I never had a battle before.
but now that, I've had my first battle, I wanna progress more the next time.
top16?? hahhaa. Looks like it's abit hard but...AHHHH.
I'll try harder.

Even though I was kindda awkward cos there are so many dancers around me that I don't know, everyone was kindda encouraging(:
Ben was totally dope man...he seems to know every single song played and interpret it so well.
SCARYYYYYY. but he said I improved alot too...which is very encouraging because for sooooo many months, I'm dancing without knowing whether I improved or not. To hear that I improved is very comforting and motivating. hahhaa.

and my first battle opponent who's also the winner of MITC, Luqman...
Super encouraging. (I can't seem to stop using that word lol.) Dope dancer...
and respect man...though he's faced with unforseen circumstance, he still gave his all. whoa...
anyway, though I was very nervous about the battle, I kindda calmed down a little after the non-stop encouragement from Janice,Lum and Schizo and Luqman. LOL. Thanks guys.

I have to listen to more music man...
kena some kindda funky hip hop kindda music...I was like SHIT MAN.
Cos I suck at interpreting this kindda song.
But I really did my best...though I wanted to give up halfway cos I had no feel for the song.
An an could even see it I think... when I asked her for comments, she said I didn't bring out the song also. OMGGGGGGGGGGG.

ANYWAY, it was a good experience... I'm just super happy I made to my first battle.
After that, I already felt empty...which means, I gotta work even harder...
me wanna battle alot alot alot. hahahha.

this was me

2010-09-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

2010-09-15T12:38:00.002+08:00

Funny how friends around you can change so much.
It takes such a long time to know them and get close to them.
And yet, in about a matter of months, they could just change their mind about your place in their hearts. I think it happened too many times. Maybe it's just me... but I've decided since a long time ago to distance myself from people sometimes, so it won't be saddening if they decide to bid their goodbye. And because I'm trying to create a barrier to protect myself, at the same time, it can be very lonely..

And another part of me contradicts this emotion.
I'd like to do everything for the people around me.
And I think I used to be like that...until...oh well..no point saying actually.
selflessly give? I can't do that...unless you've proved you're worth it.
I'm so bad. I know. God asks us to selflessly give...he's so generous..I don't know when I'll be able to do that. When you've been hurt, you'll just subconsciously start to become someone else.
And I kindda dislike the way I am now...I wish I would've been me years ago. (T^T)

Anyway,I still don't understand how people can suddenly change.
The people around them change them??
HOW CAN YOU EVEN LET PEOPLE CHANGE YOU...especially for the worst.
If you're comfortable in your skin, why do you even try to be someone else?
Maybe if you don't change, you've got no one. But are you even happy being a second-rated of someone else? If you're loved cos you've changed and become uncomfortable, what's the point?

OH MAN.
I'm damn emo now.
What am I talking about man...

this is such a sucky feeling.
GO AWAYYYYYYYYYYY~~~~
I've got so much angst inside me, I should just be a rapper...yo yo yo.

2010-09-13T16:38:00.000+08:00

Am I invisible?

I think I got it all wrong.

HAIY.

Insomnia

2010-09-03T12:08:00.002+08:00

Haven't been able to sleep well these days.
My brain can't stop thinking.
I wake up every morning without motivation.
Is this because of no school? If it is, I think I'm insane.
Holidays are meant to be loved. Why am I totally sick and tired of it?
Maybe I've got no pay now...So I can't buy stuff.
This makes me sound like a shopaholic.
haha.
And the weirdest thing is that, when I go back dance now...I'm like SIAN.

Anyway, this ain't the point.

A few days ago, my best friend sent me an sms saying that she read the letters we sent each other during secondary school..and she was like we were so young!! LOL.
We used to write letters to each other although we were sitting beside each other in class.
Then, when we separated classes, we would pass letters to each other when we met during recess or along the corridors. HAHA. A form of destress and keeping sane during crazy study periods.
And we used to talk alot about Jpop. All the rage about Johnny's Entertainment! HAHA. Fangirling was a method of destress...and it still is now,just that we have switched to Kpop.

And the young part was so true.
When I go through these letters, I realised how determined I was to be somebody when I got out of tertiary education. I wanted to save money and go Japan to do something related to performing...I wanted to dance. But God knows where all the money went to... And slowly, with all the money, determination and motivation went out of the window. And I'm still a plain average human being.
There's nothing wrong with being average really. Being average doesn't mean you'll not be happy. But I had always believed that I was meant for something bigger. I'd done stupid stuff but really, all that motivation made me crazy. Now,I just lost it, and I'm being so rational that sometimes,I hate it. I still believe that I should be somewhere better...be someone bigger. But maybe the world doesn't believe it...or maybe God doesn't believe it(He has other things in store for me!?) You know motivation articles you find on magazines or on the internet. Do something about your dreams.
HAHA. To me now, it's bulls***!! Whatever you wanna do, you need money. I'm not money faced but....just face the reality. Without money, there's nothing much you can do to your potential unless you got extraordinary talent. Besides money, there are other contraints. If you're asking me to give up taking care of my family members to go all out for my dreams...I can't do it.

I think the worse thing you can do is do everything for yourself, achieve everything and then lose your loved ones. In the end, everything means nothing. And after all that ranting about reality is killing me and after complaining about how everything sucks, someone might think that I'm SORE.
C'mon man, one of you out there is SORE too...

I made up my mind to suppress whatever that will make me upset. And when out of the blue, it just comes to my brain...it sucks and shows how not only me, but all human beings are kind of vulnerable.
And this whatever, I can't even tell myself!! I hate to be upset.. I'm a happy person...and nothing's gonna spoil that. And I'm being less concerned and caring about people around me because of this thing. I don't like it...at all...but I can't do anything... I feel like I kindda changed...I have this barrier around me...that prevents me from getting hurt but hurts me as well.

UGH.

Sian about everything. Seriously, what is wrong with me!?

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

2010-08-30T12:39:00.002+08:00

Came across this comfort article. haha. LOVE THIS ARTICLE TO BITS. hahahha.

Written by Adrian Tan, author of The Teenage Textbook (1988), was the guest-of-honour at a recent NTU convocation ceremony.

This was his speech to the graduating class of 2008.
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I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.
(Me:YEA MAN!!!! I love this sentence.)

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan “Arbeit macht frei” was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.
You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

All the bashing on youtube

2010-08-17T14:37:00.002+08:00

look at this video.

This is one of Korea's newest girl group. And they're the youngest. Their youngest member, who is also a rapper, is only 12 years old. No, you didn't read that wrong...TWELVE. Their average age is 15years old. I'm not here to change the negative comments about this girl group. But I hope people would stop bashing them just because they're young. Since they can debut, it proves they have potential. And the song is nice. There are many haters out there and I bet a portion of them wants to debut in a girl group at least. Seriously, hating em just cos they're young is just too childish!

I got bashed on youtube recently. LOL... just cos I posted a cover of my favourite Beast song. That person has a problem with non-koreans singing korean songs, and said it's messed up but she's happy that asians think that koreans are the best asians.

What's your reaction to that?

I wasn't angry at the fact that she doesn't like my singing. (I obviously posted it for fun..it wasn't hideously out of tune really) I was mad that it sounded kindda racist saying that who's the best asians. I'm a huge fan of kpop! All my friends around me would know. But it doesn't mean that I place my kpop idols on top like a god or whatever. Kpop's a huge fad now. But let's just remember that there are many other asians who are very talented as well. Chinese, Taiwanese, Singaporeans, Filipinos and whoever else, you name it. Just because Kpop is leading a trend now doesn't mean the other countries are inferior in their talent. Music is a kind of self expression and I think that as long as it's good music, people should respect that talent and listen to it. This self expression varies in different cultures and when we listen to music, we're appreciating the culture as well.

So if the person says that non-koreans who are singing korean songs are just wrong. Then isn't she bashing her own kpop idols as well. Kara, DBSK, SS501, 4minute are in the Japanese market now. Wonder Girls even sang in Chinese. Do you see the Japanese fans bashing them? No! Do you see Chinese fans bashing WG? No!

People on youtube are getting crazy. Seriously. But please put a limit to that craziness.

Figuring out

2010-08-16T14:11:00.002+08:00

There was this book I came across yesterday, "The Passion Test".
With that, you're supposed to slowly discover what is your passion and what you really wanna do. LOL, I couldn't even start doing the test because I could only think of one passion. And yes, it's to do with performing. I couldn't even think of anything else ): Since goals and passion are different things, I had a super hard time. And I gave up in the end:P
HAHA.

And yesterday while talking to minh...she was like if it's your passion, you don't need to care if you're dope or not, or if you're making money out of it.
Not that you totally don't need to care if you're improving. But I think the main motivation driving the passion should be kept simple. Like in dance, it's to love dancing. So if you care about getting a certain standard or whatever, it's a goal, not a passion anymore. And I think there are many of us who sometimes get lost, and focus so much on the goal that we lose the passion. I'm still kindda lost...but I don't think I am anymore. I'd continue dancing as much as I can...improve as much as I can. If there comes a time that I land up in nowhere, the passion shall keep me moving.

It sucks when I picture my future sometimes. So I'm just going to be a perfectly normal person doing normal stuff. That's so typical boring! I wanted to do something more with my life. But you know, sometimes circumstances just don't allow. Like in economics, you need to have perfect information and perfect capital mobility. If you lack one, you can't do anything. But to think about it, does it mean that what I want now is still what I want 10years down the road. I have no idea. Some things aren't just meant to be planned. This is nature. Go with the flow, do your best, God will plan the rest. Have faith! YESSSSSS.

OMGGGGG

2010-08-08T20:55:00.002+08:00

4minute's Inkigayo stage gave way when they were doing 'I My Me Mine'!!!

It's a very big accident seriously! Sohyun practically lost her balance and had to hold on to Jihyun. And 4minute's reaction was totally soooo big. Cos after that, Jihyun kindda whispered to Hyuna. Then Gayoon had the 'What the hell!!' expression. And you could see all of em eyeing on the broken part of the stage. Then right after that when they continue with their performance, it felt totally different...I think Jiyoon showed the least difference. But it was so obvious they were looking out for each other... First time seeing such a performance. WOW...

I kindda laughed...cos of the reactions...THAT IS SO MEAN.
But thumbs up to their professionalism! But I kindda hoped they would just take note of the broken part but continue performing normally as if the stage hasn't broken. LOL. I think if hardcore 4minute fans see my post, they would totally bash me. HAHHAHA.

BUT HEY,I'm a 4minute fan too :P

Bridging exams are overrrr. The papers were a killer.
I didn't do a 10mark question for maths cos I really didn't know how to even start doing it. The differentiation and integration questions were crazy!!!! Econs was ok but I really don't know if I answered correctly. It's a killer because I've done similar questions or exactly the same BUT...I can't remember EXACTLY. Maybe I should've just memorised all the tutorial answers. HAHHA.

Anyway, I've been busy right after the exams.

Had lunch with my sp classmates...then went out to walk around.
Ate doujiang youtiao at selegie there....I ate 1 youtiao and 1 red bean whatever you call that...and I was like full to the extent I felt like I need to vomit..And me and minh saw a couple kissing in the shop. LIKE WTH. PLEASE LAH. go somewhere more private can...disturbing seriously.

Going to get speakers tomorrow!! at last...then maybe I can donate old speakers to club.
Then going to try koi... the calories are coming back....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I wanna go exercise!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel like I wanna eat Macs too. OOOOOOOPS. Too much unhealthy stuff in a week. Soon I can dance it away!!! Janice,steph, von and me are going for kpop competition! Everyday I shock~~ Every night I shock~~ I really wanna win the trip to Korea....SUPERRR WANNA GO KOREA. But I have no money now): so the only thing I can do is just go win it. hahahha. but if got those very zai groups then sian liaooooo...win money also not bad though... Watched the shock practice video again yesterday...timing abit hard to catch but I managed. YAY. see how I will look like in the mirror when I practice...sekali look super different:P

ANYWAYYYYYYYYYY, off I go~~

seriously leh...I should just shut my blog down. so lazy to post...and why would anyone wanna know what you're doing tomorrow? unless I've got a secret admirer which duh, won't be the case. Secret admirers are like stalkers. SERIOUSLY. FREAK ME OUT.

I should go pack my room man.

lazyyyyyy

2010-07-23T11:36:00.003+08:00

despite overwhelming dope-ness of TBG, I didn't blog about it at all.(cos I'm superr lazy!)

MANNNN HOW CAN I NOT!!!

But really words can't describe how dope was the concert.

And I won't be taking pictures either.

c'mon it's too dope, you gotta concentrate on the moves.

especially Quest crew...

they totally wow-ed me! They brought all of their ABDC performances to Singapore!!

OMG!!! Cos I watched the whole of that season's ABDC. Dope on screen, doper live.

I really hope they come again^^

And WCO's segment was kindda short. Usually they're the longest cos previously they were the main guest. I wished WCO and Quest crew had equally long segments, then that would be great!

And at last this year I went for Yokoi's masterclass! YAYYYYYYYY.

but but but...compared to what steph learnt for Dom's class...it's not much):

If only the traffic wasn't so bad, he probably would've taught more.

His junior took us warmups only...but he's like younger than me but doper than me. OMGGGG!!

I should save enough money to go for at least 2 more masterclasses next year!!!

ANYWAY, sidetrack.

blog's so dead.

busy with econs and maths.

bridging exams coming!!! OMGGGG. haven't started revising!!

got so much stuff I wanna do after that.

but I'm so lazy...and that sucks. gotta get rid of the laziness!

lazy lazy

2010-07-05T11:34:00.002+08:00

very busy.
lazy to study.
want to dance.
SIAN.

becoming a person with big ego.
there's nothing wrong with me, it's the people who have a different mindset from me.
My problem?
No.
it's theirs.
I don't care eh eh eh eh eh~~

aish. ranting.

why people wear so nice to go to school?
I don't understand.
They make me feel underdressed.
I know,I'm superrrrrrrrr casual and sloppy today.
but I'm not in a very good mood.
sore throat.
RAH.
who pass it to me!!!!?
feels miserable.

LOVE MISS A'S NEW VID.
can't wait for girls day to come out.

비스트

2010-06-26T20:42:00.002+08:00

went to see BEAST yesterday!!!
haven't chased idols for a long long time..!!
I queued for around like 5hours, my legs and back ached after the whole thing.
But it was all worth it, cos I got to see the 6 handsome guys(:
pictures do em no justice, cos they're so good looking in person!!
anyway, the queuing process was kindda chaotic...
people actually dashed across the phone without giving a care about the cars that were moving.
The cars had to stop for the fangirls. HAHHA.
I care about my safety first obviously though I still crossed the road.
AND THANKFULLY, I didn't join what was so-called the queue.
I just stayed near the door to see what was going to happen.
Saw fangirls running across the phone and some shouting, "That's the official queue!!"
And I just dashed across the road to join the queue. Thankfully, I reacted fast, so I was like middle...or if subjected to the whole queue, I'm quite front already. But then after that was kindda chaotic again. Fangirls on my side were sorta upset with those across the road, cos ours was supposed to be the official queue, but they went in first (T^T). They were like shouting across the road. Actually I didn't expect myself to be so front. I really prayed very hard that I could just see BEAST. If they had limits to the number of fans that could go in, and I'm not within that, I would be DAMN SAD. But when they allowed us to go up in the end, I was like within the barricades which was quite close. HAHHAHA so touched until wanna cry. And props to those fans who came up of the queue just to help organise the whole thing so that the whole thing won't be in chaos. They got in as well(:

anyway, it's crazy when the boys arrived.
I didn't scream lahhh...I'm a very calm fangirl who keeps smiling.LOL!!!
Then all of us sang birthday song for the birthday boys. One of em's Doojoon oppa.
Can't take my eyes off the boys...hahhaha.
absolutely regret that my camera can't take good pictures in the dark even with flashlight.
and worse still when it zooms...it just blurs by itself.
what shake reduction...total nonsense.
should've gotten fujifilm or canon!

ANYWAY,
it's really exciting when I got on stage...
all I could say was AHNYEONG!!!~~~ to em...
But they're very nice(: they smiled to each person who tried to get their attention.
I was kindda waving alot of times so I could at least see their faces up close.
Dongwoon was like,"Hi!" maknae still has his own cuteness.
And Kikwang oppa...OMGGG. He has his banjjak banjjak smile. Totally blinded.
Yoseob oppa was kindda tired I guess, he was polite and all. He was like ahnyeong HAHSEYO. Wow, formallll~~~
Hyunseung oppa was kindda cold actually...but ok lah...he's like that.
Same as Junhyung oppa...very very coooool.
I was like "Junhyung oppa, saranghae!~" and he just took a glance, smiled in a can/cannot see way and continue signing my album. ahhh~~ so cold~ I wish he could smile BIGGER.
OMG, it's my first time saying Sarang hae to a boy!~~hahaha. I didn't mean it in that way lah. He's my favourite in BEAST cos of his overpowering charisma. And he seems kindda quiet, don't smile alot. Maybe he's tired...

Loved the oppas and Dongwoon more now(:
awww...
still can't get over the excitement til now.

Pictures below^^

envious of BEAST...

I wanna one day stand on stage and get lotsa screams tooooo~

HAHHAHA. dream on..

swagg it out with lyle,kyle and ellen

2010-06-14T12:12:00.003+08:00

went to 15minutes to hang out with classmates.
15minutes is such a good place but you gotta agree that their fish and chips were more of a chips and fish. 9.90 is so not worth that. Poor charlton.
amanda had a mushroom something something which looked kindda normal.
couldn't pronounce all the weird italian words. So when I helped to order, I was like can I have the chicken something something...and the mushroom something something. HAHAHA. So that I didn't need to embarrass myself:P

but oriental duck pizza was very nice...

junhao's chicken parmigiana.

tofu lasagna...was mineee.

and yesterday, Johnny and I went for SWAGG OUT2.

Lyle's class.

But before that, while we were sitting outside waiting for Lyle's class, Kyle was in the studio teaching. And we were trying very hard to look from the bottom of the glass cos the middle part was totally tinted.

AND OMGGGGGGGG.

Kyle's choreo was really nice. And the way he does it, seems like it's his own song and emotions.

I see SOUL.

WOW.

I went crazy...like really overwhelmed.

and he's so cute~~HAHHA.

that's Kyle and me.

Just pay attention to Kyle..(cos I have unglam hair after all that sweat!)

He's nice toooo~~

If I was richer, I would've have gone to all 3 of their classes.

Their style is unique in their own way.

Lyle's really cool.

Even when he's teaching.

He's got all that swagger when he dances.

AWESOME.

And besides that, totally can't figure how he uses so little energy to produce such sharp and strong movements. Maybe it's the muscles.

Perhaps I should go build some muscles too.HAHAHHHAHA.

I'd like to dance like him.

but it might take forever):

Anyway, he gave us the choice to choose between nike boots, swagger international and change up. So at first, the majority wanted nike boots(including me).

But when he played change up, everyone was like WHOAAAA.

so he did change up instead.

a pity that there wasn't enough time, he couldn't finish the last part of the choreo.

Then, after the whole thing, all 3 of them did their solos.

AMAZINGGGG.

It's just like going into a youtube video.

Ellen is so cute...she's such a cute lady.

And all of them are really kind. They still took pictures with all of us, even though there were so many of us.

choco

2010-06-09T14:02:00.003+08:00

I WANT THIS POLAROID CAMERAAAA.

135bucks at my house camera shop.

it's so lovelyyy.

but I don't have spare cash.

and when you have a digicam, polaroid is just a waste.

cousin bought this for us!

woooots.

very nice(:

especially cos it's bourbon.

and she's getting married soon.

yeahhh.

went for RP session on monday!

was quite fun. although felt kindda foreign there:P

not very used to these kindda situations:P

but yeaaahh..I had fun. my freestyle was terrible:P

wanna go back to session again...

reached home late...like super late. Then had to go to work the next morning for a 12 hour shift.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS.

Busy-ness is good. At least I don't need to think so much.

emotions regarding dance. I should just leave it alone.

I'm so busyyyyy.

THANKS TO M;FIG FOR THE GIFT(:

especially the messages^^ touched!!

elm's class

2010-06-07T14:00:00.002+08:00

went to elm's class yesterday!!!!
it was totally dope! It's kindda hard to catch the feel but I shall try to explore.
LOVED THE CHOREO. I still have coordination problems at then end.
Should do better with more practise(:
took a picture with him after class...abit paiseh to ask..but I still did...I mean how often can I go to elm's lesson man! HAHA.
And he was like, "U had fun in class?"
I was like,"Ya" and was like too happy. HAHHAAH. cos I've seen his videos since a long time ago, and being able to go for his class is such an honour.
And I learnt quite alot.. and marked steps and marking steps is different. WOWWW. hard to grasp...
and I like the whole style...FRESHHHHH. haha.

I'm going SWAGG OUT THIS SUNDAY. LYLE BENIGAAAAAAA. WOOOOOTS.
alot of dreams come true. I thought I'd never be able to take their classes in my whole life. Unless I get enough money to travel to USA.
It feels like a master class craze this year.
Went to 1G,Elm...then soon Lyle and Yokoi.
^^
This is excitement in my not-so-happening life(:

Haven't been to training last week.
And I've got quite a lot of time to think about dance.
so many things that crossed my mind, mixed emotions.
ALOT OF EMOTIONS THAT DISTURBED ME...because I think the goal I have in dance is making me grow further away from dance. And yea, I had thoughts of "Oh...maybe I should just stop dancing."
But after thinking deeper, why quit when you don't hate dance?
Aren't we supposed to dance cos we love dancing?
The feel of being able to express yourself freely through movements...and being able to connect with your inner emotions. Whether you're angry, happy or sad, dance can help me express. So why the thought of quitting just because you dunno where you're going.
Not saying that a goal is not important...but if you don't have intrinsic happiness you find from dance, then the motivation to dance is not because of dance itself anymore.
LOL. soooo chim sia.
But I'm having a lil struggle...and I hope to get over it and be like what I was when I was a junior in SDZ. Having fun, loving dance cos I love dance, and just be happy. I wonder if some people are going through the same thing as me...

When you get older, there are things that you grow out of.
Maybe there are times where we should move on so that we can find a better ourselves.
Change may be difficult, but not always bad.
There are attachments we have made at a place, friendships, memories etc... but if we're stuck there and unhappy. Maybe moving on isn't such a bad thing, and memories could be a way to keep us going at another place?

yummmmmm

2010-06-05T00:02:00.002+08:00

went to eat korean today.

this is supposed to be bulgogi.

but...

WOOTS.

practically all the bbq stuff can be samgyupsal.

you know the korean dish where u put the meat into the veggie.

I think that's what it's called.

That's All

2010-06-03T19:26:00.002+08:00

Malaysia was boringgg.
OK LAH. It wasn't as expected lah.
It wasn't my idea of fun.
I think the best part was playing wii and getting to sit on an osim massage chair.
LOL. My nephew kept wanting to play with me.
I had so many games of tennis wii and cook-off party.
Luckily, I didn't get a wii. It's not very fun after all.
I think I get bored too easily. HAHHA.
And can you believe it, I didn't spend on anything except food.
Or rather, the food expenses werent my money too.
HAHA.
I think there will be more fun if... I went with a bunch of friends?
Or maybe I'm just plain bored lah.
The weather was soooooooo hot, it wasn't making me feel any better.
SIAN TTM.
And I'm not into eating so much as well. I was practically fed like mad.
I think I'm fatter already. Actually, no need to think, I AM FATTER. HAHA.

watched The Devil Wears Prada on the coach. (Coach is just 55bucks to and fro, and u get to watch movies!!)
The Devil Wears Prada is nice~~~~
I like to see all that running around for that Miranda Priestly, and the starbucks and the cool office, and all that pile of work that seems so taxing but still looks so glamorous on screen.
But most of all, there is a lesson learnt from the show. (I don't like movies without a proper reason for having that movie).
No matter what, stand your ground. Nothing can change what you believe, not even your job.
WOOTS. I wanna watch it again~~

And after that I watched the Simpsons Movie. Like halfway, and realised it was tooooo LAME AND STUPID. Then I watched Notting Hill, which was stupid at first, but I didn't have enough time to continue to watch if it's still stupid. HAHA. Anyway, that's about it for my trip. Not very happening huh...

Nichkhun and Victoria on the next WGM.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH~~~~~
I'm watching the YongSeo couple now. tata!

HOT HOT HOT WEATHER

2010-05-26T16:43:00.004+08:00

IT'S SOOO HOT!!!

It sucks to even walk because taking one step will make me produce 10000000 drops of perspiration.

I showered thrice already.

and swimming makes me hungrier than usual.

UGH.

luckily I'm home or else I'd probably consume an overload of calories outside.

I'm not obsessed about my weight by the way.

I just wanna be lean, maybe after that, I can get my packs just like Lee Hyori. (look above!!!) HAHAHHA. wait a thousand years...chitty chitty bang bang chitty chitty bang bang!!~~

Cabi MV was stupid. Or rather the song made it stupid. No no...it's the cabi part of the lyrics.

back to choosing units for my degree. We need to read like 171 pages of regulations. Not that we need to read every single word...hahha.

suntec

2010-05-24T11:56:00.000+08:00

I wanna do suntec.

NU ABO

2010-05-12T10:51:00.002+08:00

HELLLLOOOOO.
Has anyone seen f(x)'s new music video NU ABO??
LOVED THE CONCEPT TTM!
Just how I loved 2ne1's fire. The edgy kindda look. WHOOOAAA.
and I've been addicted to the song.
OMGGG. and after seeing their hairstyles, I wanna grow my hair asap. LOL!
and do either Luna or Krystal's hair.
Luna's pic is the top one. Bottom is Krystal.
I like Krystal's one because I don't need to worry about roots growing out.
I really dunno if the salon's going to do the blond before the black. but if they do the blond first, means I spoil the ends of my hair I still can go cut em all.

Which do you think I should do? tell me tell me t-t-t-t-t tell me.

Yesterday, a patient totally pissed me off!! or rather the patient's son.

Here's how the conversation went:

Me:(looks at the paper son gives me, it says "Tan Png" thanks to his bad handwriting, throws away paper because obviously I can remember such a short name) *checks system, checks the cards. no sign of such patient* TAN PNG.

lady comes forward.

Me:(in chinese) is this how your name is spelt? cos I can't find your name.

Lady:(in chinese) *** Pua. I came here previously. (*** is to protect the person's name.LOL)

Son:(in a sudden agitated tone): *** PUA *** PUA. WHERE IS THE PAPER I GAVE YOU?

Me:(obviously the paper isn't important cos I remember already) How do you spell your mum's name? (I was in a patient tone)

Son: *** P-U-A. WHERE IS THE PAPER I GAVE YOU!!!!!!!?

Me: (in a wth mode, but still patient tone) I threw it away already cos I remember. I just needed to clarify your mother's name cos I can't find it and ur letter 'a' looks like a 'g'. (cos he wrote the a with such a long tail, and his 'u' looks like an 'n'!!!!!!!!!!)

Son: *shuts up and goes to sit down*

-end of conversation-

SERIOUSLY. DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE POINT OF HIM SHOUTING?
COS I DON'T???!!
What on earth is the fuss with the paper itself?
I had 16 patients last night after working for a whole day. I know patients can't see that I've been working the whole day but at least they could've tried to understand that I was in a rush already and trying my best to attend to their registration.

By the way, the 16 patients didn't come at once. But then most of the time in the night, we have average of 8 patients. And morning 16 patients or more, with one more colleague helping out. So I have to do the job of 2 people last night! I have to dispense patients, call in the next patient and help register. That's kindda ok but when 4people come to register at the same time and you have to take their temperatures, how are you to cope? and at the same time, medicine has to be dispensed etc etc.

Just because you're a patient doesn't mean that you have a right over the clinic assistant?
Even if you're irritated, can you be polite about it?
I don't think there's anything wrong with complaining.
It happens when we get bad customer service.
but do we know the cause of this?
Sales assistants and customer service officers have to face nasty people day in, day out. That is part of the job. But when nasty people don't treat them with respect, it's when they get tired of treating people well. It's human nature. Yes, they have to be professional about it and it's their job but they're humans! They feel.
So please people, treat each other with respect. Then nothing like this would happen. It's the same for customer service people, they don't treat their customers with respect, they can't expect the same from the customer.

贵在中和，不争之争。as quoted from Ip Man.

I don't wanna say goodbye

2010-05-07T15:59:00.002+08:00

BEAST "Easy" Sincere version.

this version is seriously dope.. can totally see their skills. and the version is better than the normal version.

SPAZZ SPAZZZ SPAZZZZ about BEAST.

I can't help but start to think that they're better than 2pm. But of course, 2pm's humor is unbeatable. And I'm still a fan of Jay.

AHHAHAHA.

Anyway,today was absolutely whatever.

I was actually super high about getting a slot for Lyle Beniga's class. HAHA. I paid already. I hope my slot is secured. AHHHH. I mean what's the chances of him coming again?!! I wanna go to Kyle Hanagami's class too but I'm not so rich. HAIY. I still have to pay for my bridging courses. AAAAAAH. And I have to save for my TBG classes. I wanna go for Yokoi's class or Shohei!

And I got into SIM!!! UOL not confirmed cos I still have to submit the application to em. But the application fee is in pounds!(0.0) expensive! I hope I get a place.

Good newwwwwwwwws man. That's why I'm so high. AND THEN when I went to book movie tickets. I went to click on "Iron Man 2" instead of "Ip Man 2". THE TWO TITLES ARE SO SIMILAR!!!!!! And after the confirmation I was like huh?!IRON MAN 2?!!! NOOOOOO. Cos obviously my mum won't wanna watch Iron Man 2 and neither do I wanna watch:P although everyone says it's nice. But ya know...I think Ip Man 2 should be better:P I like the martial arts kindda action. HAHHAH. Anyway, I had to go all the way down to cineleisure to change my booking! But at least can change, if not, that's just...RAHHH.

It's going to be Mothers' Day this weekend! My parents and I are just going to eat and watch movie as celebration. HAHA. I don't know what to do about Mothers' Day. Presents are kindda ya know... I know my mum loves presents but isn't that extremely boring? Presents only I mean.

Although my mum has been nagging at me for going dance for like 3years plus and I'm frustrated most of the time, I still can't explain my gratitude. I've been rebelling. LOL! I'm 20 years old and I still rebel. Obviously because, I can't be like a 20 year old so I rebel. 20 year old isn't too young nor too old man. Sometimes, I wish that she could treat me less of a kid. But ultimately, I know she still worries. Besides, it's many times that she gets lonely that she needs my company. So I really hope that she finds her own happiness from within. All I can say is that, seeing her like that makes me really wanna rely on myself for my own happiness. I kindda hope that my dad could be more of a dad and a husband. I'm like becoming a man of the house myself. AND I'M NOT A MAN! =.= It gets lonely facing alot of stuff alone sometimes, but I don't care. I have dance as my only comfort(that's why I get super irritated when people ask me to stop dancing, or when I feel that I can't dance anymore). AND AND AND,I'm not saying that my parents are a burden or anything. They're both kindda lonely cos they can't get through to each other. And when I try to help em, things seem to get worse. I really hope that... both of em could be more in touch with each other. That would be the perfect Mothers Day gift for my mum as well. Such a pity that, there's limited things that humans could do with relationships.

And my mum makes a lot of sacrifices herself, she can have less sleep and still be doing what she needs to do as a mother even though we ask her to rest. I guess all mothers are like that. Thank you to all of you(: You all make the world less of a cruel place to live in by giving your care

DANZPEOPLE RECITAL

2010-05-03T14:01:00.004+08:00

Danzpeople recital is overrrr.
some pics below.
most of em taken while backstage where there was nothing much to do because of the lack of space. There was like sooo many dancers squeezed into one dressing room.
LOL.
bear with the unglamness(: we don't really care. HAHAAHHAHAH.
but backstage was kindda fun...with sabrina and me doing random freestyle.LOL!
and there was music coming from the speakers...it's like what you hear outside, we can hear it inside too.
overall, the perf was enjoyable lah.

overdue pics from bday.

this cake! i bought it myself.

it tastes darn good.

but u know what, they didnt have lighter.

so in the end, i just put the candle there and blow into thin air.

HAHAHHAHA. whatever. but I really love the cake. YUM.

thank you

2010-04-27T14:00:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JAEBEOM!!!!
lol. kindda late to post this but I already wished him on his youtube channel on that day itself anyway. aahahhaha. his birthday is the same as mine!!!^^ cool huh....
hope we'll be able to see him soon man.
the new song's really dope.

my LA-ers(:

and thanks to everyone who tried to make my birthday less boring.

THANK YOU.

especially minh phuong,moka,amanda,janice,stephanie,heng thye, fellow SDZ-ians who flooded my FB wall or my message inbox, and people whom I never expected would wish me(:

love y'all loads man. <3

this is l-o-v to the e
그 사소했던 기억이 마음을 뒤섞고, 나를 뒤엎고, 눈물은 끝이 없지.
see, 사랑은 폭풍도 흔들지 못하는 마음을 몰아치는 빗물 한 방울
the little memories.
술잔처럼 비워진 투명해진 우리의 작은 추억들.
돌이키려 돌아봐도,
다신 만들 수 없는 그대와의 기억
어젯밤 꿈처럼 선명한데. 날 떠났네…

Epik High - 1 min,1sec

clouds

2010-04-24T20:09:00.002+08:00

Birthday?
LOL.
It's like I'm starting not to care anymore cos...it's really boring.
But of course, it doesn't mean that the friends who are celebrating my birthday are boring.
I'm just saying there's no more excitement for birthday.
The only thing to look forward to is like FOOD.
And I really don't expect presents...
Remember the time when you were young. You'll want your birthday to come faster because you'll get what you want? Now's totally different.. the stuff you want gets more expensive. And I don't like people to get me expensive stuff. Hard to reciprocate.
I totally missed the times in STC where being the birthday girl was the big thing...quoted from Amanda...YEA. No doubt I loved birthdays when I was in STC because even if there weren't any gifts. There were heartfelt notes from my friends and these notes helped me go through the toughest times. And then they will treat me like some princess... birthday girl this birthday girl that. HHAAHHAHA. And I was like telling amanda, it's cos adults are boring. And we're stepping into their boring world. so....you can't do anything about it.
So,how about just having a normal birthday?

Genre showcase was good today(: LA turned out fine. Not bad not bad. I'm touched to see em grow and improve, especially the moderners. And I absolutely LOVE THE MODERN PIECE. the feel's totally WHOAAA!!! more updates next time when steph uploads the photos.

Currently into Epik High.
They've got dope lyrics man! DOPE!
And Tablo's such a cool guy. and his english is like 0.0
And they make super good music and are damn good rappers.

AND DUMBFOUNDEAD,JAY PARK,CLARA'S COLLAB SONG IS OUT!!!

I'm not an obsessive fan but I'm definitely envious that Clara gets to collaborate with em.

The lyrics are damn nice.
Clouds ft. Jay Park and Clara.

Roll, roll back the clouds
Let the sun shine through

[VERSE 1-DUMBFOUNDEAD]
There's light at the end of the tunnel
I haven't seen it
Not all of us become rockstars and ballerinas
Even in California the sun ain't always beaming
Can't predict the forecast for all four seasons
We have dark days
Can't make your car payments
Workin a whackass job living in mom's basement
Some lands never get rain so there's starvation
Some only see snow through neighborhoods scarred faces
Not everything is set in stone
The weather changes
It's like god that the devil's trying to entertain us
Walked in the treacherous storm and overcame it
It is never an easy path on the road to greatness
So don't you give me that boo hoo hoo shit
We're moving on to that new new new shit
Look up into the clouds and watch it blow away
Until my problems just go away

[CHORUS-Clara]
When the clouds are in the sky
Know that they're just passing by
There'll be sunshine
Yeah
If your days are stormy nights
Dry the raindrops from your eyes
There'll be sunshine

[VERSE 2-JAY]
Everybody works hard for their goals to achieve
But like the ocean is sea, man, the motion is free
So nothing ever adds up the way we want it to
I guess my math teacher was just a substitute
Everybody hits a rough patch turbulence in the sky
Life's a cow I made a burger
And I'm serving it with some fries
Gotta make do with the cards that are dealt
And though it's hard as hell
I know that God will help
Cause although I live in Seattle
It's not always gonna rain
There'll be some sunny days coming up this way
Everybody's wanting to see me struggling
Running away from pain
But I know the wondrous things are coming to visit again someday
So no worries I just stand here with a smirk on my face
Although I know some people out there throwin dirt on my name
But it's all good
Still show em some love
Cause unlike that girl from the movie
I ain't holdin no grudge

[CHORUS-CLARA]
When the clouds are in the sky
Know that they're just passing by
There'll be sunshine
Yeah
If your days are stormy nights
Dry the raindrops from your eyes
There'll be sunshine

[BRIDGE-CLARA]
I've been a little lost
But I'm not colorblind
I'll follow that yellow brick road
And put my fears behind
And on that yellow road
I'll find a wishing well
Cast a line and in time I know I'll prevail

RAAAAAAAAAAAH

2010-04-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

today was absolutely sian.

porridge the whole day.
and while I was watching Shinee's Hello Baby, I craved for fried chicken cos they were eating it.
but I can't eat anything hard or deep fried now.
I feel like eating macs :P
I'm not in a very good mood now so even if I eat, it will be a calorie spree. That's uncool!

and I'm in a bad mood cos of my schedule next wed!!!!!!!!!!
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
12HOURSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! then if after that got recital practice, then good luck to me!

actually I dunno why I'm in a bad mood.
must be the hormones.
):

actually hello baby is getting kindda boring.
I just like to watch Minho taking care of yoogeun.
AW SO CUTE.
Nothing can beat Wild Bunny. 2pm is so funny!!
I don't like their new MV though. specifically the chorus.

gotta go.

don't know where I'm going

2010-04-17T12:03:00.004+08:00

Feels like the whole emo thing going on about me and dance is coming back.
):

It's not as if I'm dancing so much.
SIAN LAH.
I wanna go dance but my mum'll nag.
that's one thing that is stopping me, and now, even I'm stopping myself.
I got a choice to probably just not let the nagging get to me, and just get out of my house.
Ya,I can do that.
But when I reach the studio, it's like SIAN-NESS.
an inertia to train probably because I feel like I don't know anything anymore and probably it does not make any difference to train.
this sucks. *sings* I got an attitude problem I got an attitude problem
HOW THE HECK CAN I EVEN THINK ABOUT THAT?!
seriously, I'm beginning to forget why I even dance.

I'M FREE MAN.
I NEED TO CHIONGGGGGGGGG!!!!
AND STOP LAZING AROUND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

American Idol

2010-04-04T11:41:00.002+08:00

OMIGOSHHHH.
I LOVE THIS SEASON OF AMERICAN IDOL!
how can you not? So many talented people...especially ANDREW GARCIA.
his performance of Chris Brown's "Forever" was totally soulful. (the studio version isn't as nice) While hearing the song, I feel so darn loved sia. though I have no boyfriend. HAHHAHAH.
and I came across another video of him doing a cover of my alltime favourite song, "Fireflies".
his voice makes me feel so peaceful! I hope he wins American Idol! He's so original and filled with soul. How can he not win??? haha. Some videos to check out below.

While you're emo, songs help to perk you up(: especially songs like these!

anyway, I had my extraction yesterday.
not very painful since there was the injection.
but it kept on bleeding for some time which was totally sian.
cos I walked around town with the cotton stuck in my mouth and salivating excessively.
I look mental. Gosh... I tried talking but drool kept wanting to come out. So I have to keep changing the cotton. It's like I think I scared all the people in the toilet because of alot of blood in the cotton. HAHAHHAA. Yesterday's extraction scared me a little though. Cos the doc said that my roots are slender. So it's like if extracted, there's a risk of it being fractured and then it'll need to be surgically remove. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So scary. I hope the extractions tomorrow would be fine. I'm looking forward to braces, but not the eating part. It'll be wartime diet. Porridge + Sweet potato... And I'm going to miss trainings until next week, which kindda sucks. but...oh well.

digressing.
I've been feeling misunderstood these few days. or maybe for quite awhile.
like sometimes, it feels like I'm feeling damn misunderstood.
I'M MISUNDERSTOOD!!
some people really don't know me.
I know you can't expect everyone to understand you...but when it becomes misunderstanding.
How about not trying to assume?
I'm not saying that I'm misunderstood all of the time.
BUT it sucks when I am...
And I probably got hurt by it, and no one knows.
and probably I can't express myself properly...BUT MAN, IT SUCKS.

dance delight

2010-03-29T13:38:00.002+08:00

I still can't believe I can be so affected.
RAH.
though it's our first time..
thanks to everyone who came down to support M;FIG.
This is just our beginning.

JIAYOU to those who have got into the finals!!

You give up,you lose.
Stay strong.
Remember what you're dancing for.

emo emo emo emo

GRADUATION!!!!!!

2010-03-24T13:30:00.002+08:00

OMGGGGGG!!!
I think in all my 3 years.
I did my best this semester.
I haven't seen so many Bs before!!! HAHAHAHA.
YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And my CCA!!! A+!!! SDZZZZZZZZZZ MANNNN!!!~~~~
dance dance dance!!!
all my efforts of mugging and dancing paid off((:

BA2036 INTERNATIONAL TRADE FINANCE & DOCUMENTATION B
BA2012 TREASURY B+
BA2038 BANKING LAW II B+
BA064Z BUSINESS DEVELOPMENT B+
BA0286 INTRODUCTION TO PSYCHOLOGY B+
BA2045 FINANCIAL PLANNING B+

Semester GPA: 3.407
Cumulative GPA: 3.052

DIPLOMA AWARDED
NATIONAL FITNESS AWARD (NAPFA) TEST - GOLD
CO-CURRICULAR ACTIVITIES (CCA) - A+

our training so far

2010-03-20T18:39:00.002+08:00

OMG.
it's a week to dance delight.
AHHHHHHHHHHHH.
it feels like a centimetre more and we'll be on stage doin' our thing.
you know what...
our choreography is freakin' exhausting. first time doing a whole piece with so much floorwork.
I'm so frustrated with my own stamina. By the end of the second part, I'm already panting.
ARGH. I'm hungry for the finals. Next week is the last week to chiong it all out.
I feel like we've got some idea there but then it's so unclean...and lack of soul.(because we're still doing the steps and assimilating it)
Oh well, M;FIG's gonna do well. GIRL POWER! We'll show it.
M;FIGGERS, FIGHTING!!

anyway, I have to go study!
ugh.
AFP.
I thought I was done with FV,PV,NPV and annuities for the time being.

Nothing On You

2010-03-17T00:24:00.004+08:00

Just came across Park Jaebeom's video of Nothing On You (cover). Although the original is nicer, I still found emotions that he wanted to convey to his fans through his voice. Since I'm a fan too. LOL. I felt it man. I know it's like darn stupid cos I'm already over the age where I chase idols. But, I sorta teared after listening to the song. I don't know why. It's not because Jaebeom was singing it. It's because of.. my own personal emotions as well. HAHA. And it's so coincidental!! Like I was listening to the same song a few weeks ago during the exam period on the radio...and I was like wow,nice song, I'm gonna get it after the exams. No wonder me and Jaebeom has the same birthday. (HAHHAHAHA!!! fangirl-ing. ignore me.) I hope we'll be able to see Art of Movement on ABDC soon. YEAAAA.

Anyway, I wanted to blog about my poly life. Like specially dedication, emotions and whatever else. Those people who aren't interested. BYE BYE. This is MY SPACE anyway. HAHA.

AHAHHA. I don't know how to start but... I'll just start.

omigosh. so rubbish. HAHAHA.

Oh well.. honestly I had no feelings when I left poly. Not that I don't treasure the times with my friends but because, maybe all of us were old enough to know that, we'll meet again somehow.

Like for my classmates...I guess we'll still hang out and stuff. Amanda, Erianti... EH YO. We'll still be DA THREESOME. Though some of us, classmates, have conflicts sometimes. It happens, but we still move on. And man, we've been through thick and thin in our projects. I'm glad that projects are over!!!!!! And thanks to my classmates who have been pulling through the projects with me(:

SDZ! MA HOMIES! M;FIG!!!!!!!!

Without SDZ, life would be sooooooooo boring in SP.

I came into SP with a mind that I die die must join hip hop.

I didn't even know SP had a dance club but I somehow felt that there must be one.

And I went through, until now, almost 3 years of dancing? or more than that?

I don't care if not everyone in SDZ comes to my blog to see it or whatever. But I'm going to thank people for letting me realise my passion in dance. It's in random order so I'm not biased k.hehe.

Firstly, to Daniel, who was the first instructor to teach me and probably alot of my dancemates in my batch. He taught us teamwork and alot of things. And I'm grateful that SDZ had an instructor like him. Secondly, to my seniors, some of whom made me realise my own potential. Dance captain, Zul, who showed us so much of his dope moves, shared with us alot of knowledge about hip hop and have all of us cipher etc etc. Then to Han, who always criticises us but we know that it's for our own good. And he's the one who provoked me when I started LA. Provoke in a good sense lah. I still remember he said, "LA's not all flow." Which yea...I wasn't doing LA correctly cos I didn't know I HAD to execute hit and release. And I wasn't very regular at my Oschool LA lessons. So Emily had alot of info cos she always goes there. And she told me about the hit and release thing. So after that, I started to explore videos and explore hit and release.

And thanks to Aeem(WOW. so random)...because his choreography in waves12 made me feel LA's damn cool. And then after that was Gin's choreo in Recital07. I was like, "YA!I WANT TO LEARN THAT!" So, to everyone, who helped me realise alot about my direction in dance, thank you! And to the Khai, Valerie, Mel, Uncle, and all my other seniors who guided me in my journey in dance, thank you! Without all of you, I would've never learnt as much as I would.

And to my whole batch of dancemates. M;FIG, and the boys.
thanks for giving me so much support, not only as a dance captain, but also a dancer.
you guys never fail to make me damn happy cos of all your funny antics.
we've been through 3 years of waves man!!! I hope that each of us will continue to dance even if it's not as a team. We'll still meet up even if one of us doesn't come back anymore. (AHAHHAHA. like I'm saying me). and M;FIG! I hope we'll be able to get through Dance Delight preliminaries and at least make ourselves a little known and make a change in SDZ.

AND JUNIORS! Whoever comes regularly and never fails to contribute to the club, thank you.
and those who've got the potential, continue to dance. Year 3s-soon-to-be, the busyness ain't an excuse for you to stop dancing. If you think you can, continue to guide your juniors and bring SDZ to a higher level. Same for the Year2s-soon-to-be, alot of you have got the potential to go far, so don't be lazy. If you got it, use it well, train well. And bring back and inspire your buddies who can't seem to take the time out to train. And likewise, inspire and train your own juniors well(:

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would've done

Yeah... gotta start
Lookin at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start pickin it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying

We only got
86 400 seconds in a day to
Turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell 'em that we love 'em
While we got the chance to say
Gotta live like we're dying
-Live Like We're Dying(Kris Allen)

And to this person, thanks a lot.
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
-Already Gone(Kelly Clarkson)

because I'm lazy

2010-03-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

HELLLOOOO.

my blog's sorta dead.

I know.

Cos I'm lazy...AND...I'm busy.
like more busy then when having exams.

I'm working,doing AFP AND...participating in DANCE DELIGHT with M;FIG
Dance Delight's on 27 March,7.30pm outside taka.
those who are free, please come down support.
^^

AFP's superrrr boring.
Why on earth did I even think of doing AFP?!
And I have to spend money on a financial calculator which is more than 60bucks.
WOW.
and will I ever use it again?
ERR.

Oh well.
Today I went SIM open house.
I'm still very frustrated about what to take!!
I think Accountancy is stable but then actually, I'm not that interested in it.
I think Business is ok...but...what are the prospects like?
RMIT's Business Degree kindda appeals to me. But UOL branding is better?
Oh man.
A whole conflict of interests. It's giving me a headache.
And you know what's the good thing about RMIT degree, the exemptions are given depending on what subjects you took during poly. So if you have, you have. Don't have then too bad.
But for UOL, there are exemptions!! But I'll have to take a bridging course in Econs and Maths.
UGH. so uncool. And the exam date is near suntec dance. RAH!

My mum's already nagging at me for joining dance delight.
SERIOUSLY.
I know she's worried...but the more she nags...the more I get stressed.
Cos I'm already stressed.

I kindda almost cried yesterday when I went early for AFP class when it wasn't a morning class.
AH!
HOW DUMB CAN I BE?
I forgot to check the latest email.
It's my fault lah.
But it's really super tiring cos I had to go home(cos it was too early) then go school for dance, then go home to bathe and take dinner, then go for AFP.
DOPE HUH. And what's worse was the topic for AFP last night was PV,FV,NPV etc etc using the financial calculator. AND U KNOW WHAT!
I don't have one cos I couldn't find one cos I didn't have time to go Bras Basah complex.
But thank God...my classmate, Amelia, also from DBF, lent me her calculator sometimes.
like when I wanted to try out..she'll be kind to lend me.^^
ANYWAY, AFP lecturer also quite boring. but not as bad as YOU KNOW WHO.

M;FIG's training is going well I guess.
We're progressing.
HAHAHAHA. Feels like having a comeback on music bank.
So exciting. Everybody anticipating.
But abit stress as well, cos obviously, we don't wanna disappoint whoever's supporting M;FIG and most importantly US.

sidetrack.

I'm so busy.
I haven't had time to watch MBLAQ Art of Seduction(just a MBLAQ show lah), MBLAQ Idol Army, Death Note anime, my Korean drama 'New Heart' DVD, You're Beautiful and blah blah blah. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
so frustrating.
and I'm trying to cope with lack of sleep:P

AND UNIVERSITY APPLICATION!!!!!!

Have been looking at the modules for the courses that I might wanna take everyday I come home...
and I haven't got a conclusion till now.
but RMIT...
AHHHH. I feel like doing that Business degree!

sidetrack again.

my weight. serious issue. tsk tsk tsk.
see what happens when I eat and don't go dance.
problematic. it's a lot of kilos to lose(T^T)

nites people.

a point of no return

2010-02-22T00:28:00.002+08:00

I used to think that I could overcome all obstacles to get to somewhere.

But I guess that place is no longer reachable.

while I still long to belong there, time is passing by.

there are times in life where you have no choice but to go with the flow.

Not that I don't have the courage to go against it. but if I do, I'm being the bad person.

So when does this desire ever stop? sometimes I wish it could.

but then when something is that important to you, you can't.

cos if you do, the emptiness swallows you up. and you'll start to question what's the purpose of being in this world?

Life's not bad.

in fact, I've already got many opportunities. But then, there are still more out there that I want so much to pursue.

But like Nelly Furtado's song..."Why do all good things come to an end?"
So is this it.?
am I supposed to say goodbye to dance, to making more out of my own potential?

maybe it's time to wake up from my dream.
you'll never know what it's like for me.

Our hearts are hungry for a food that won’t come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And we’re all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you
What would you wish you would’ve done

what is teamwork?

2010-01-31T13:42:00.001+08:00

I know sometimes people love solitude.
but hello? when it comes to teamwork, please be more professional.
Either that, or just don't join a team.

Same for projects, same for dance.
It sucks when we're supposed to work like a team and some people just don't get it.
They don't act like a team member. I'm not targeting at any particular person. Cos obviously, there are a lot of people who don't act like team members.
I'm not going to say that I'm a very good team member but at least, I still do my part as a part of the team.

This person was superrrrrrrr irritating. He totally misunderstood our group leader.
Like...really said that it was irritating that someone withdrew from presentation due to personal reasons. But obviously it was not her idea by the lecturer's idea that maybe I should present. So I took her place. And he has no right to say that about her even if ... she did withdrew because of personal reasons. Cos he didn't contribute much to the project due to personal reasons also. And after I sorta shoot him, or rather, stated the facts, he didn't reply me. If he's angry then whatever lah... he doesn't know how to think. And the only reason he's still in our group is because our lecturer likes him...AND..he didn't execute his departure when he said he would.
OH WELL. It's another week and it's over. No need to discuss anything anymore with a person who does not do what he promises to. And what about the gender issue man...EXCUSES.
Please lah...you're a guy. Act like one.

And those people in dance who have stopped coming back.
I dunno if your friends called you back.
If they did, and you still didn't wish to come back, then what do I have to say?
Have you forgotten why you started dancing?
And I don't care if you're going to come back anymore because no point forcing.
If you're not going to dance with your heart, and you're just dancing because your friend is also there..then oh well..
never mind.
ughhh.
just ranting.
not as if I'm going to stay in SDZ for a loooooong time. (though I want to.haha.)Imagine if I'm like 25 years old and I'm still in SDZ. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Good dayyyy people((:
It's time to chiong for the last month.

dance

2010-01-26T00:01:00.003+08:00

omg.
I can't dance.
I'm so lack in dance knowledge.
I'm feel like a dance noob. (T^T)
AHHHH~~~
Had xiaohei's training today.
She's dope man. All her movements got feeling.
I feel like I don't know how to feel a song anymore.
LOL!!
And I'm a dancer?! HAHA.
It's like WTH...I'm teaching my juniors with my kindda standard.
but can't really call that teach...I prefer to call it a sharing session. hahaha.

This is really my last year of determining if I'll continue to dance like mad or just take a step back..
It's stupid to set a deadline to when I'll stop dancing.
I won't stop dancing. At least that's what I think. I don't wanna stop dancing.
the deadline is for me to let go abit. and go on with my life.
HAIY.
Need a deadline to motivate me to chiong out everything.
My mum has to give me one more year. I think she only let me have one more year?!
OH DAMN SIAN.
I feel emo about dance these few months.
like...I wanna dance. but it can't bring me anywhere for now so...I don't know what I wanna do. Cos dance is like the only thing I really wanna do. (at least I feel this way)
But want to do and can do is another thing.
No matter what people say about believing in yourself, it's an issue man. Between what you wanna do and what you can do.
Like for example, you wanna quit school but can you?
all the consequences..

then you know,
you look at life as a big picture.
how do you wanna see yourself?
I know.
And you know..after all the thinking, I feel like some lost rabbit.

So how about I don't think and just do what I can now?
Isn't that practical?
AHAHAA.

non-dancers who can't understand what I think, please keep quiet.
thank you. LOL.

randomness:
xiaohei is seriously dope~

Hyori And Hyuna

2010-01-22T16:33:00.002+08:00

Amanda,Erianti and I saw a rat when walking to the MRT after class yesterday.
It's damn small...and kindda cute.
BUT It's still a RATTTT!
And Erianti and I just ran man...
Amanda was like, "Hello!" to the rat.
hhahhahahaha.

and Pansy was funny during BKLAW again.
She and her funny antics.
She's like a cartoon when she tries to demonstrate a scenario.

Anywayyyy....
sidetrackinggg.
This is not the main purpose of my post today.
PEEKTURES below of Hyori and Hyuna respectively.
both are Miss Sexayyye.
Alot of people are saying that Hyuna will be the next Hyori.
Don't you agree? They look almost the same already!

Hyuna when she was fat.

OMG!!!!

BIG DIFFERENCE.

Live Like We're Dying

2010-01-21T22:51:00.002+08:00

Sometimes we fall down and cant get back up
Were hiding behind skin thats too tough
How come we dont say I love you enough
Till its too late, its not too late

Our hearts are hungry for a food that wont come
We could make a feast from these crumbs
And were all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would've done

[Chorus]
Yeah, gotta start
Looking at the hand of the time we've been given here
This is all we got and we gotta start thinkin it
Every second counts on a clock thats tickin
Gotta live like were dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or throw it all away
We gotta tell em that we love em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like were dying

And if you plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbyes
Should be so careful who we live out of our lives
So when we long for absolution, therell be no one on the line

(Chorus)

Like were dying (x4)

(Chorus)

You never know a good thing until its gone
you never see a crash until its head on
All these people right when were dead wrong,
You never know a good thing till its gone

(Chorus)

Like were dying (x4)

totally love this song currently<3

when you're tired

2010-01-15T20:18:00.000+08:00

but I can't drink coffee ):

frustrations unsaid

2010-01-15T02:07:00.003+08:00

to person A,
why do you keep doing that?
kindda irritates me but I understand.

to person B,
what happened to you? tell me why, you're acting this way.

to person C,
what are you thinking?

to person D,
thanks for being nice....

to person E,
I haven't talked to you for a long time.

to person F,
can you please don't subtly shoot people. Thank you. not going your class. haha.

to person G,
I'm sorry.

to person H,
you seem like a leech sometimes. I like it only when you're not.

to person I,
YEAAAAAAA. we should go to the zoo and eat some korean food. and talk about 2pm(:

to person J,
come back to 2pm please(: you're the besttt^^

to person L,
get a life.

to person M,
get a life.

to person N,
let me train pleaseeeee~~~ give me a chance.

to person O,
can I be your disciple?

to person P,
you live so near me but we never meet!! c'mon man, it can't be me who's always contacting you.

to person Q,
when are you coming to Singapore?

to person R,
do you know all of us are damn stressed!!!! projects,tutorials and whatnot...
Thanks a lot for this. We've got only 1 month left.

to person S,
YEAAAAAAAA MAN. I know you can do it. Jiayou!!

to person T,
how are you?

to person U,
can I be your new member? Neottaemune manido urosso~~~

to person V,
..............

to person W,
JIAYOU MAN.

to person X,
(ran out of things to say)

to person Y,
(ran out of things to say)

to person Z,
(ran out of things to say)

LOL.
just being very random.
some things cannot be verbalised.
YOU know it.

'Twas more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer?
Do what you want to.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

hopeful

2010-01-12T18:13:00.003+08:00

had a talk with juniors and seniors yesterday.
I think I haven't talked with such a heavy heart before.
it saddened me sometimes to see them not performing to their potential.
I don't know if what I said got through them.
but I know I have said whatever I needed to tell them.
Hopefully they'll listen...even if it means doing things their own way, as long as the results show. Then it's just fine(: I hope I can see a doper and more disciplined SDZ(:

I missed dancing man...
yesterday was enjoyable! although...my stamina was so bad.
and my whole body's aching today. can't walk down the stairs properly.
RAHHH.
Graduation come faster.
I wanna dance.
I feel like running away and leaving everything here.
Then fly to Japan/Korea to just live there and dance.
HAHA.
need money (T^T)
then my parents how...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~

Got scolded by my mama yesterday cos I came back late from dance.
OH SO SIAN.
and then I think cos my dad upset her or something. Then I also kena scolding.
She likes to say both of us are useless.
But I know why she scolds us and nags at us so much.
cos she places us of utmost importance and she sorta expects the same.
She's lonely.
I just know it.
cos I'm lonely toooo.... and when I am, I go dance.
my mum shops and she needs a person to go with her.
AHHHH....humans are lonely creatures.
don't cha think so!? humans are naturally sociable creatures although some may be introverts.

XMAS09 more pics!

2010-01-06T15:32:00.004+08:00

had this career profile test and it says that...
I'm suited do jobs related to the Arts or Teaching.
omigoshhh.
and the career profile test is like super accurate.
so I got a little emo that I'm in a course that's related to neither.

OOOH YEA.
some leftover pics from XMAS!

inside the ION xmas tree.

seriously, it's nicer to go see it in person.

the cam does the decor no justice.

so beaaautiful!

ION XMAS TREE is the best!

me and my cousin

Mr Santa is so round!

do you ever wonder why people blog about their own lives?
I'm wondering why I'm blogging about mine sometimes.
Like...who wants to know about your life.
seriously.
LOL.

lalala

2009-12-30T19:05:00.003+08:00

was like super pissed off yesterday.
RAHHH.
ranted like mad.
@#%$^#$%^$^@#^@$#@!

went to swim today.
yuckkkk..don't like the swimming complex toilet. so dirtyyy~~~!!
like how many thousand years never upgrade.
Anyway...
I wanted to swim laps today. butttt...
didn't swim for like a decade...so when I dipped my head and saw the water at 1.8m, I freaked out and was like...no way,am I going to swim across.
So I swam like 1 quarter to and fro for like 45 mins.
Then super sian, so I got out of water and went home.
Swimming alone is so siannn~~
at least next tuesday I'm going swimming with bell.
YAY.

School reopening soon. UGHHHHHHH. 2 more months.
RAHHHHH.
need to finish FP project today summore... haven't do finish one part. AHHHHH.
need to compile also. AHHHHHHH.

I wanted to watch 'You're Beautiful' during holidays.
I think no need le...no time. unless I become a couch potato and chiong the drama all day long.
'You're Beautiful' Parody is damnnn funny!!!! So damn gay...really cannot stand. but the ending is toooo funny. hahahaa...

Can you believe tomorrow's New Year's Eve?!
Actually 2009 is kindda boring...except for Waves.
what did I do in 2009...the first thing that came into my mind was Waves.
DA BEST EVERRRR. I think it was like crisis plus excitement all at once.
Actually to think of it again Waves 12/13 was much more....prepared.
but anyway, whatever it is...concert's the best thing that can happen in a routine life.
or rather...dance is the best thing ever in a boring life like mine.

HAHHAA.
and ITP was good...considering the fact that my colleagues were kindda nice people.

OH YAAAA...
and I 'graduated' from Reggae 2. And I realised after that...like for more than 6months I haven't danced reggae. like suddenly not much interest....not that I don't like reggae anymore. but I've been concentrating alot on hip hop. cos helloooo?! my hip hop isn't so good...to my standard.

lemme think...
and yaaa...the worst thing was that Park Jaebeom left 2pm! (T^T)
but 2pm's still going strong!!
listen to my heartbeat! it's beating for you!
HWAITING HWAITINGGGG~~~~

hahaha. 2009's really boring. HHAHA.
and it's all because of projects~~
*punches soft toy*

This might be the last post of the year!!
cos tomorrow I'm going to watch Sherlock Holmes with the whole bunch of dancers.
SDZ infiltrates the theatres~~~~
YAY. tomorrow got Rain's concert on TV!!!
Go Rain! It's Raining! CCIII AHHH~~
LOL!!

Hey peopleeee...so what are y'all lookin' forward to in 2010?
For me...it's dance dance dance(I hope I never stop dancing)
Like what else?!!! unless I have money to go Japan or Korea then that's like WOOHOO!
I wish all of you health and happiness in the coming yearrr! And I hope you wish me the same too.LOL!!! and I hope I never get bored. LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
time for projects~~~(T^T)

XMAS09

2009-12-26T10:10:00.004+08:00

No more brown hairrrr!!!
It's red just like Mr Rainism((:
I didn't dye my hair...it's just colour treatment. Since brown is too hard to maintain, I decided to change to REDDDD. But you can't see clearly in the picture.

Woohoo. NAILSSS.

I tried BEG/2NE1 type of make up. WAHA.

just for christmas(:

Frosty the snowman!!

went out with paulina the day before xmas eve.

313!

love the lights there.

And Forever 21 is dope!!!

4 levels. OMGGG.

had a big feast with my parents on xmas eve.

WAHHAHHAA.

KAISEN DELUXE~~~

this looks simple but is superrr nice.

Ferrero Rocher xmas tree!

Paragon!

There was this kid. I think he's from Hong Kong.

Damn funny.

He tried prying through the Christmas tree and was like,

"I CAN SEE INSIDE!!!!!!!"

in cantonese.

LOL!!!!first time see a kid doing it.

that's meeee.

with a whole bunch of people.

I bought 2 mini santa hats.

But too small for the camera to capture.

LOL.

This year's Christmas somehow is still super sian.

For some reason, I can't get excited over the lights that was more beautiful than the past years.

BORINGGGGGGGGGGG.

still feels like I did nothing on Christmas.

Maybe next year I should save enough money to go overseas on Christmas.

I'm backkk

2009-12-21T11:20:00.002+08:00

Malaysia was damn boring.
There's seriously nothing to do. =.=
The shopping centres are super boring.
But of course I did buy some stuff... CHEAP!!!
And there's one reason why Malaysia rocks...
because they sell korean albums we don't have here.
SEEEEEEE. I got my 2pm single!!~~ 01:59PM was outta stock.
but I like the 7-people 2pm(: It's like SGD11bucks.
MUAHAHHAHA.

BORING TTM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BORRRRRRRRRRINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

BORRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRINNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGG~~~

someone gimme money.... I wanna fly to korea/japan!

it's sad to see the friends whom you thought were close not think about you anymore.

and that you belonged somewhere but maybe you were wrong.

where dance is everything

2009-12-16T13:44:00.002+08:00

Congratulations to Jaebeom's crew Art of Movement!!!
they won the bboy finals!!~~~
YESSSS AH.

check this out man.
his crew really has alot of dope stuff!

OH MAN...
I hope graduation can come faster so M-FIG can train.
Suntec, suntec, suntec~~~~
I told my mum that I wanna join suntec..and she was DUHHH. AGAINST IT.
it sucks to have parents not understand you.
I thought my parents did...but I guess they don't after all.
I thought I should give up dance...but it's a drug man.
I got addicted.
Without dance, I'm just empty. Without dance, I feel like I don't have any life anymore.
And few weeks ago, when I just stopped going for training. I felt like...so is this the end?
Perhaps I'm not going to dance anymore?
And it sucks to be thinking about that.
Like last week when I went for ahmad's class...and goodness...couldn't catch the choreo.
And I begin to think again. So I'm going to stop dancing at this kindda standard?
I was so reluctant. Seriously.
I dunno if it's going to be possible for me to lie...DUH. My mum would know if I said I'm going out but I'm in my baggy shirt and pants.

OOOOH. It's 2pm now!HAHA.
anyway...
I was watching "Star The Secret"...wooyoung got me motivated man...hahha.
reminds of me when I was super passionate about dance.
Not that I'm not passionate about dance now...
just that I'm freaking frustrated about not being able to dance just cos my mum says no.
Everytime I say I wanna go train, my mum's like,"Train what?!"
And she asks me why I wanna go for dance...
I tell her and she doesn't understand so what for I even answer the question.

DAMN SAD.

Sometimes I wish I was Spongebob

2009-12-10T23:05:00.003+08:00

Yea..like what my post says.
Sometimes I wish I was Spongebob.
Seriously...
Spongebob is so nice. And he is forever so happy.
you know sometimes, when you're nice and happy, you actually hide some of your sadness or whatever. And then one day you just explode because sometimes you're just hiding it. I wonder if Spongebob's like that...

I'm watching Backstreet Boys old videos now.
LOL. My favourite video is actually "I Want It That Way".
Cos it's super cool...especially the beginning and the AIRPLANE. AHHHH.
I used to be such a big fan of the Backstreet Boys. Like I would go online and search for their stuff..and then there was this time where 'Black and Blue' album was such a hit...and then there were a lot of TV specials on TV. Super happpyyy can. It's equivalent to the excitement of having 2pm all day on TV. WAHHAHAHAH.
the 90s is so cool. Haha. Bardot's super cool too. AHHHH!!!
I'm actually also listening to M2M on my ipod these few days.
Cos basically I can't study with kpop.
I just go mad and sing.

Honestly I can't wait til 2009 is over. It's a pretty screwed up year.
like Jaebeom's departure. That's the most screwed up thing that happened in kpop.
And I'm not really so enthusiastic about the holidays because everything's so boring.
I'm not going to KL. RAHHHH. All the excitement since the last trip. I wanna go there and get clothes for Chinese New Year! And now I can't go (T^T). I'm only going to Melaka now...that's boringggg. There's nothing to do there except eat and...????

Actually 2008 was screwed up too. Abit...Dance was good. but I felt emo like for alot of times. 2009 was generally happier. but WELL... WHAT AM I DOING! Rating happiness =.=

I think the lack of dancing has driven me to a corner.

I'm gonna go watch SuJu and 2pm's ISF((: Park Jaebeom!!~~~
Yes I'm a fangirl!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~

My goal for the holidays: chocolate abs!!!!woooohooooo.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!

MST! ):

2009-12-05T10:51:00.004+08:00

I'm going to take 10 mins to blog and I'm done.
Need to chiong all BKLAW by today or I'm gonna screw for treasury.

CHRISTMAS TREE made of cards.

HOW COOL IS THAT.

someone give me this lamp..
YES!
it's a lamp that designed like a spotlight!!!!
anytime I wanna perform in the comfort of my house,I can switch it on.
COOL HUH.
LOL.

Japan's popular R&B singer...

who's going to collaborate with Big Bang's Taeyang!

And Big Bang gave her this dope headphones(in her hand)

It's Lady Gaga edition of Dr Dre Headphones!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

How hip hop can these headphones be!!?

Must cost a bomb...

I WANTTTT....haha

went to takashimaya yesterday and saw this really cute ad at Tiffany's.

I'm not saying the guy is cute...

I'm saying the PICTURE.

hello?!

you can't even see the guy's face.

HAHA.

CUTE LAHHHH.I'm using it as my phone wallpaper.

haha.

and I saw this filipino woman who was at the isetan Japanese food fair

who spoke...

fluent Japanese!!!(0.0)

She couldn't really understand English so in the end I decided to speak Japanese instead.

haha.

nothing reminds me of secondary school more than this w-inds song<3

my second favourite song of w-inds. It's an emo high song. LOVE IT.
This song is for the Christmas season mannnn.

seriously...the dance isnt very nice.
BUT the song is dope! though very emo...
I remember watching the PV and crying:P SERIOUSLY. It describes love like a the way a moon changes it's shape. WAHHH. DAMN SAD. Go check out the lyrics~~~

너에게 미쳤었다

2009-11-30T09:27:00.002+08:00

*너에게 미쳤었다 : (I Was) Crazy for You*

she's gone, gone. she's gone, gone.
she's gone, gone. she's gone, gone.

you get up. you even shake off my hand that holds on to you
i still love you.. those words are stuck in my throat so i can't even say goodbye

as you turn your back, the whole world becomes clouded
it destroys everything.. all the days that i loved

i was (i'm sorry, girl) crazy for you (i'm so sorry, girl)
i let you go without even saying that
my girl (i'm sorry girl) is getting further away (i'm so sorry, girl)
love can't do this to me

it was hard, i was tired... i finally ended everything with those words
i can't hear the words asking me to let you go if i really loved you

the image of you turned around is stuck in my mind
it destroys everything.. all the days that i loved

i was (i'm sorry, girl) crazy for you (i'm so sorry, girl)
i let you go without even saying that
my girl (i'm sorry girl) is getting further away (i'm so sorry, girl)
love can't do this to me

how will i ever know? why should i let you go?
why? why? what about our love..
can't let go, you've ripped my heart. oh no.

i couldn't even tell you not to leave
it's too late to blame myself for just stupidly watching you go
day by day, i go crazy
i can't forget you
i can't stand this
that's right. i'm crazy for you.

i was (i'm sorry, girl) crazy for you (i'm so sorry, girl)
i let you go without even saying that
my girl (i'm sorry girl) is getting further away (i'm so sorry, girl)
love can't do this to me

MANNN.emo songs...
this is the best 2pm ballad everrr...

FLYER

2009-11-29T14:31:00.012+08:00

AHNYEONGGGG!!!

Went to flyer on friday! It's freeee(:

Actually, seriously, I think the night view should be better, though I haven't seen it.

BECAUSE... the day view is extremely boring.

Firstly, the resorts ain't up yet...so all you get is like cranes.

And then the other side is all the same buildings =.=

If I had to choose the most boring tourist attraction in Singapore, it will be the Flyer.

And the Flyer tics ain't cheap too!

Now for picssss...

(above pic is taken using my mum's phone..COOL HUH!)

like as if the Flyer's a plane =.=

this isn't photoshopped(:

and all the pics aren't cos I dunno how to photoshop.

LOL!!!

this looks abit like China(0.0)

you see maybank tower??

after that went to esplanade via citylink mall..
damnnn cool...

there's a lot of artwork.

SNOOOOOPY!

this bear looks like amiel.

these are actually super mini...

so cute!!

awww...

I like this pic...the girl pouting is so adorable somehow.

Flyer was so boring that I camwhored for quite awhile.

I rarely camwhore.

So this shows how bored I am. SERIOUSLY.

I think the above photo is unglam but funny at the same time.

AND...

I don't care eh eh eh eh eh~~~

Pretty hot dayyyyy.

the pics are making me think that I should not have black hair again:P

but my roots are already growinggg...

STUDYYYYY STUDYYYYY.

everyone jiayou for MST!

pissed and freaked out

2009-11-26T11:00:00.002+08:00

I haven't danced until so sian for a performance before.
Some things make me really so pissed off man.
Like this person who tells HER people everything and everyone else doesn't know.
Then she doesn't announce it at all.
WTH.
then studio say can use...then suddenly cannot use...then suddenly can use.
Make up your mind please.
What rubbish lor...if you were not more superior than me, I would've told you off.
Borrowing my club speakers? HELLO.. we don't even have enough.
And telling me that I can go on with practice when not even half the people will be there?
WHAT RUBBISH.
And telling me that Super Junior bouncing move looks weird when everyone says it's nice?
You don't even know what's hip hop...and you tell me it's weird?

And when we're waiting for you to finish talking to a person and I just slack a bit...
and you ask me what I'm doing?
You're clever...but can you use more logic?!
c'mon lah...abit of slack time won't die... this performance isn't even waves.

WA SEH.
and got this person who totally freaked me out yesterday.
damn irritated also.

the only very fun part was after that which was this mini LA session that made me laugh like mad. As usual juniors can be so cute...HAHAHA. Was damn stunned by Johnny's choreo... later show me everything then I won't get surprised already.

SHIT LAH.
I overslept this morning. Then I missed tutorial.
Feels like shit man.
UGH.
I wanna studyyyy. And like be super disciplined for at least the next 3 months.
Can you believe it!?!?!?
3 months to graduation...then we can scream "FREEDOM!!!"
I need to work on BD!!!
MST coming and I haven't started on anything. SHIT SHIT SHIT.

rainy day

2009-11-23T09:14:00.002+08:00

BMG is stupid.
=.=

it sucks to wake up for an 8am class.
I wanna sleep so badly~~ T^T
It's only 9.40 am and I can't wait to go home already.

AHHHH.

end school end school.

I lost motivation for school. and it's the last sem...this is badddd.
I need to work harder!!!

RAIN's godson

2009-11-19T14:14:00.002+08:00

be very envious of this baby.
He's Rain's godson!!! and MBLAQ's Mir's nephew.
AHHH. so adorable!!!

We're supposed to do this business management game thing today.
It's so boring...
why do they put useless things into a module that's already useless enough?
I mean, hello, in reality, business is not so simple. So what if we're doing a simulation game. It's just teaching us how to make decisions.. but in real life, decisions are more complicated than just a game.
Very funny.... this contradicts with what the career talk person said yesterday. To treat life as a game. LOL.
If I treat life as a game, I'd just fly to Korea right now...
then I don't have to do BD anymore.
stupid FYP.

I actually planned to do BD during the 3 hours break.
And I didn't do anything in the end.
I went home, slept, ate and found out there's only half an hour left to do work.
half an hour...HAIYYY.
might as well just slack...so that's what I did.

I feel damn lost now.
everytime during lecture and tutorial...I'd write down notes but my brain isn't moving.
I keep feeling super stoned...
like my brain only starts moving when I'm in dance.
SHIT.
This is bad.
Actually...I'm also starting to stone during dance.
Is this a symptom of no more drive after waves????
RAHHH.

It's the last semester.
I need to work hard.
Who would want to employ someone with such terrible grades!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm lost now.
super lost....

WAVES 14: CIRCUS

2009-11-17T17:19:00.009+08:00

AT LAST!!!
AFTER SO LONG...
I'm updating properly!! So so so...it's weird to talk about waves now since it's been over for almost more than a week. Well, this production/ dance concert...was the most difficult I've ever done. It feels like we've pulled through alot because of so much "There's no show" stuff going on. And also alot of...not putting enough effort and alot of clashes and lack of time. Sure, we had really little time on our hands but I still think everything was a good job done. In general... of course we each have some regrets about our own happiness like... cut steps or whatever. Although we lack in a lot of areas, we're still learning so let's not be so hard on ourselves and give ourselves a little pat on our shoulder(: I think there were many things that improved from Waves 13 to Waves 14. At least I think LA improved(: WAHHH. touched man when I saw the video and I can see all the control and accents. Although the formation was super cui!!!! I sincerely thank my dancers for the effort they have put in(: And ahmad commented about the choreo and stuff... AHHHHH. the feel was there for the choreo... I was like AHHHHH! I think Janice must be very happy too...

Vanilla Twilight was an extremely challenging song because it lacks strong beats unlike normal LA Hip Hop songs with doom-doom-doom-ka-doom-ka. So for myself, to be able to choreo with feel for this song is ahhhh...my own breakthrough. AND another breakthrough for myself is that...I danced for 2 funk items...waacking and popping. I've never seriously danced funk...cos...hahahhaha. I'm more to hip hop. I had fun for both of these items...thanks to heng thye and xiang for having me in the choreo((:

This might be the last Waves concert for me. But it ended nicely. Really good memories...
This is super dramatic but really, after curtains closed I just started crying. LOL. half happy and half sad...like this might be the last time I see the audience from the stage... last time I'm performing with SDZ? damn sad...

Seniors and juniors, GOOD JOB for waves. Whoever's reading my blog ...this is to you.
Don't mind about the mistakes that you made. As long as you learn from it, you'll be able to be a better dancer. You still have 1 or 2 years to push yourself. so JIAYOU!! I hope to see a doper Waves 15(:

Thanks to all who came to support me! Loved the sunflowerrrr!!
credits to elizabeth for taking so many pictures!!! and they're not bad mannnn....

NOW FOR PICTURESSSSS(:

GA-HO!!! so cute lahh.
moosh moosh...

hahhaha. caught sleeping...

THRILLERRRR!!

I'm now sensitive to this song...

Ryan and me and steph

An an and me and steph...

Thanks to both of these instructors who gave us so much guidance throughout the production.

LALALA. Bandit choreographerrr.

her and her special ideas.

Bandits item was cute!

grizzly bearrr and me...

half of the LA boys..

popppppperrrrs.

this looks damn wrong.

like scandal...

Juggyyy and steph and me.

Yoona-hair christabelle and me...

1 year later, still call each other cry partners.

LOL. cute modern juniorrr...

her performance for Gladys item was DAMN NICE.

solo solo solo. wowww.

this was taken during the overnight dance practice on Steph's birthday.

It was a dope surprise!HAHAHA.

Put her in the box and she really thought we're practising in the box.

And when music play, then she came out surprised.

YAY. I love surprising my buddies.

The shocked face makes my feel accomplished.

HAHHAAHHAA.

now for some unrelated pictures(:

I bought 2 cans of this coffee because one has G-dragon.

the other has Seungri.

The Seungri one didn't taste so good.

drank halfway and threw it away.

I'm still waiting to try the G-dragon one.

but cos my gastric is giving me problems, I can't drink coffee now.

which sucks...cos I keep feeling sleepy nowadays!!!

this is the packaging of the matcha roll and ION.

ISN'T IT SO CUTE!!!!!!!!

I love this kindda packaging and font.

my cousin bought this perfume.

which comes with a miniature and lotion and body gel.

smells sweeeeet~~

and the packaging is so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!

JAEBEOM ATTENDED 2PM's COMEBACK PERF!!!!!!!

And..

Wooyoung called Jaebeom using his cell phone, to which Jaebeom said, "What time is it now?" Needless to say, the members showed how close they are and received lots of applause from others who were in the waiting room.

DAMN SAD LAH. Anything that is to do with What time is now.. it's superrr sad!!!!

Seems like Jaebeom isn't coming back.

And 2pm's not going to go on and variety shows. Which is damn sad...cos the 2pm I love most is when they're on variety shows.(T^T)

WAITTTTTTTTT

2009-11-11T20:41:00.001+08:00

Cos of alot alot alot of project stuff to do.

I've to delay my post about waves.

and for some reason, the thumbdrive for my camera memory card hangs so often.

so WAIT YEAAAAAA.

Lee Minho event cancelled =.=

2009-10-24T23:03:00.002+08:00

today was combined run half costume.
AHHHH.
It seems like it's getting worse each week.
Can totally see that Ryan was not happy today...
heart shattered man... I kept doubting myself. Felt super low...then have to go dance waacking.
WAHHHH force myself to be happy... this emotion is supposed to belong to the clowns!!
I'm a DOLL!
Oh well...very ji dong today. Suddenly realised actually there's quite abit of stuff today I wasn't happy about.
Super mixed feelings....felt like crying.
UGHHH. Get over it man... WE CAN DO IT.
Be positive!!!((:

After run today, went to PS with bell to see if we could catch a glimpse of *sings Almost Paradise*LEE MIN HO!
it was damn crazy seriously...there were like so many fans they had to switch the escalator to going up so that no one could go down anymore. And since all the food were at the basement, we still had to go down to eat. It was almost 4pm and we didn't eat anything!!!!!!!AHHH. So we just went down the escalator that was going against our direction. I was like "Lift your legs!!!" to bell...cos it was easier to get down that way.HAHAHHAH. Then we decided to eat first before going to see if Lee Minho had arrived. Then we tried squirming our way through. And then announcement was made that THE EVENT WAS CANCELLED. Not like I'm disappointed...dunno if Bell was though. It's not 2pm so I'm totally ok...HAHA. There was a very kind security guard who told us that it was cancelled cos we didn't hear the announcement. HAHHA. Then when we went out, we saw some fans running outside. So we thought LMH was outside...so we walked. I didn't wanna run...HAHAHHA. And in the end!!

We found out that all of em were runnning like mad just for LMH posters =.=

WAHHHHH CRAZY!!!!

But made me think of how I used to chase 5566...HAHHAHA.
Now think about it...that was mad!~

Watched SYTYCD "Mad" choreo...
WAHHHH BEAUTIFUL...love the choreo....
my favourite choreo is still "Bleeding Love"...so emotional. Watch le can cry.
haha.

ahhhhh...waves waves waves...
push push push.

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2009-10-21T21:29:00.003+08:00

Waves 14 + Achiever's Function = stress
WASEHHHHH.
I need to help mix song and choreograph for Achiever's Function a.k.a MJ perf.
Omgeeee...and the parts that need to mix are so weird sometimes. I have a hard time figuring out. And then June Lin wants Thriller to end with a bang...then the back part of Thriller is like super long. Wavelength different... how to cut short!!!
Sian ah...then it's like the Beat It last part... want short but later says too short.
ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
haiyy. then need to choreo Billie Jean 1 min plus cut!!
I'm going to be superwoman...

plus LA... dunno if anything is going to change. then need to add choreo?!!!
AH... this totally sucks...
then popping also damn cui~~~~

and like WTH....
anyone can like understand abit anot??
my mum keeps nagging at me nonstop summore...

SIAN LEH.
why in the world am I complaining anyway?
almost 2 months of holiday...supposed to be enough.
But when I go back to school...I totally have no mood. Just waiting for school to end and go dance. Wanna study hard but feel like...
I'm going to graduate soon. Probably no more dancing for Waves?
WAH.
I think until so far.
But really I just lose all my enthusiasm when I think of graduation.
I only wanna graduate cos I really hate projects.
I'm still thinking if I actually like Banking.
When we all go out of SP, it's like time to face reality.
work work work.
I feel like I cannot get enough of dancing cos I haven't reached the level I wanna reach.
But it doesn't mean work then cannot dance right?
SIAN AH. Why think until so far!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-14T13:53:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO.
I actually can cut music properly.
MJ Billie Jean and Beat It was cut todayyyy...
not bad man...doesnt sound weird at all.YAYYYYYY.

currently super addicted to 4minute's 'MUZIK'...
And their performances are so addictive.
Just like 2NE1~~~
And I got my 2NE1 CD !!!!!!!!!!
Thanks shinaaaa....
I like the whole album...AHHHH~~

I think I listen to alot of 2pm...
I dreamt of wooyoung in that weird hip-hop cum hanbok costume in Wild Bunny.
and we were talking...
dunno about what...but we were conversing.HAHAHHA.
why of all people wooyoung?! not that it's bad...
wooyoung's cute...haha. Jaebeom's cuterrrr~~~
fangirl fangirl~

new blogskin

2009-10-10T20:56:00.002+08:00

YAYYYYYYYYYY.

new blogskin at last!

the previous one was seriously boring.

timetable sucks.
What's with the 8am classes! They suck.
I don't like waking up early anymore. I wanna at least be able to watch arirang or channel V before I go to school. At least I'll feel happier...haha.
next week is the last week of holidays...
RAHHH.
holidays pass too fast sometimes. I haven't got enough.
and I'm not looking forward to BD either. EW.
BD is such a useless module.

I don't even know if I'm supposed to look forward to the last semester.
I mean...it's the last last last period of poly life.
I don't really like school sometimes but I'll miss my friends...Amanda and company..HAHA.
and...OF COURSE. SDZ... my one and only life in SP.
haha.
everytime I dance...it's like getting away from stress.

Going to do this MJ perf thing for farewell assembly.
looking forward to it! YAY. but abit afraid as well...haha.

I miss 2pm.

why arent the 2ne1 TV videos up???? there's supposed to be more!!

ARGH. leave me alone man. let me dance.
it's my life. face it!

toshio

2009-10-02T12:52:00.003+08:00

TOSHIO!

WOODONG!

I miss 2pm.

2009-09-30T12:06:00.002+08:00

it's the 2nd week.

SEEEEEEE.

nothing.

ANYWAY, I'm officially jobless. I just quit my job... so that I can focus on waves and my last sem.. NEVER MIND. but really, I've got no income nowww!!!

and and and...
I was really super pissed off yesterday.
nothing to do with dance. maybe abit but not with training or whatever.
can you imagine spending like 3 years having every week with dance being nagged at to stop doing what you like or even going to hang out with your friends?

AISHHH...
This is what I'm supposed to be: A hardcore banker who earns a whopping amount of salary and just stays at home during free time and maybe watch the financial charts online.

This is what I'm supposed to be...a person with a stupid normal life or no life.

You only get to live once man. And I'm expected to grow up so quickly.
WHAT?!
I shall stop ranting cos I think the rants will get worse.
LOL.

chiong for waves. chiong for waves.
I'm shutting up cos of waves. If I shoot back, that's it man. No more waves for me.

again and again

2009-09-27T16:25:00.002+08:00

我要变成宅女了！！

It feels like I'm probably going nowhere.
it totally kills me when I can't just have a life for a while.
stay home stay home.
OMG. hello?!
I supposed to be a teenager out having fun.. or just having a normal teenager life.
just chilling out or whatever.
and someone is asking me to be a 宅女!! even worse than that...I'm being nagged when watching Kaba Modern or 2pm on youtube.

AND YOU!!!
if you don't understand why does dance need training then you probably should just keep quiet.
"use the same training and do it at home lah"
WTH.
dance at home? for what??? the walls to see ah?
obviously people who don't understand dance or even sports...really are so... RAH.
that's why I don't like to talk about dance to you people.
Like y'all will ever understand.
My definition of dance is more than just moving your body to the music.

I really wish someone will just sponsor me to Korea and I'll just stay there.

sarang haeyo

2009-09-27T15:36:00.002+08:00

THIS IS DAMN CUTE.
I can't find the song at all.
TSK...so cute lahhhh. sarang haeyo~~~~
AWWWWWWW.

This boy likes 2pm too.

And there's this 2pm flash mob coming up in Singapore.
The date is on the vetting.
LOL.
actually I really thought of going...only because I wanna do Again and Again.
BUT THEN.
I'm not supporting that Jaebeom come back thing.
I mean, ya, of course everyone wants him back in 2pm.
But he made his decision already so why mentally torture 2pm and Jaebeom??
Let them just continue with their music...and maybe when the time is right, he might just come back.

VETTING SCREWED.
RAHHHH. Waves, waves, waves.
I hope everything's gonna turn out dope.

ANYWAYYYYY. yesterday was really tiring...9 am in school for vetting then out until 9.30pm. One whole big bunch of us went to Bugis to find costume. And we sorta lost each other halfway also. LOL. damn funny...as if we're on some tour.
And I seriously crapped a lot yesterday. This happens when I'm too tired sometimes. It's either stoning or crapping. A whole load of rubbish...Except LA training. That wasn't crap. HAHHA. but I think I was really tired I forgot alot of things..

Barichello crashed yesterday!!! then his wheels just came off! haha. what a sight!
And hamilton was 1st...Scherzinger was like clapping lah.
Seriously, the speeding was damn exciting...reminds me of how I used to love racing games. Now that I have no playstation, I don't even play it anymore. (T^T)

I think people on the same birthdays have the same kindda characteristics.
not same same...but similar same.
Jaebeom reminds me of me sometimes...LOL.
sarang haeyo Jaebeommm...

hmmms

2009-09-23T13:56:00.001+08:00

right now...
there's nothing special.

HMMM.

what is happening to my choreo?*cries*

listen listen...

there are no more 2pm shows to watch:(

T^T

2009-09-18T20:42:00.001+08:00

I shall just chiong like siao for waves ok...

that's it...

I feel so dumb now.

2pm fans...support 2pm and jaebeom all the way!

2009-09-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

The fans in Korea have stick post-its all over JYP centre.
You can go and google it on allkpop.com.
It's amazing that so many people want Jaebeom to come back.
But then... the thing about boycotting 2pm's events was abit over.
I mean... yea...to me 7-1=0 also.
But then boycotting will hurt Jaebeom and 2pm more won't it?
Jae left just so that 2pm would have their activities smooth running...and then if the fans boycott, it totally defeats the purpose. Wah..then liddat will hurt him even more, won't it?
I just saw the video of him in Seattle's Airport.
The fans flew all the way there just to film him (0.0)
He's damn sad!! I see le wanna cry...

whoever the netizen is...
he's just being childish.

2pm leader Jaebeom has left 2pm!

2009-09-09T11:45:00.002+08:00

Ahnyeong hahseyo...

It's been a long time since I've updated.
cos yea, exams! HOW TO UPDATE! chiong until go mad.
Well, it's overrrr. And since it's over, I'm supposed to have time to blog.
BUT...I've been watching alot of videos. 2NE1 TV, and 2pm's shows.

But todayyy....I have to create a special post on my dear Jaebeom.
He left for Seattle yesterday. And yea, he's already in Seattle.
Let me see...
Jaebeom was the first person I noticed in 2pm.
I wasn't a fan of 2pm since '10 out of 10' came out. Cos...the MV was like errrr. And then the dance was only bboy. Not that I don't like bboy...just that I watch them as a whole and I was like hmmm not bad...but I didn't really like the song.
So, this year or was it last year...
when I watched 'Again and Again'...the song was sort of addictive. And yea...the tutting sorta appealed to me. HAHHAA. Anyway, besides that, Jaebeom first caught my eye because his facial expression was very funny. And then next was Junsu cos of his mask...then Nickhun cos yea he was cute. And then Chansung cos he looks super matured but then he's the maknae!

So after sometime, I happen to ask moka for the song. And she had it...plus 'I Hate You'. And after that, I just crazed over 2pm. Loved their songs. Then started watching their variety shows. I thought Jaebeom was darn cute after watching Boys Generation. HAHHA. Then from there, I watched Idol Show and Wild Bunny. Wild Bunny was the best cos you could literally see 2pm without their idolness. Jaebeom and Wooyoung made me laugh the most. You wanna know how funny is it...go watch Wild Bunny. And besides, he had such a passion for dance!

Anyway, so after all that craze, suddenly I heard that Jaebeom resigned from 2pm! I was just like super shocked. Like I couldn't see him on neither music bank nor youtube anymore. I watched the video of him leaving and I cried leh. Goodness. This is so not me. But yea...cos...It was such a long ago mistake he made. He apologised and the netizens wouldn't leave him alone. Yea, he said he'll come back. But it's indefinite! By then, will 2pm have a new member? Will he be in a new group? 2pm isn't complete without Jaebeom.

He's gone(T^T)

All the fans are like posting comments on youtube videos asking him to come back.
We can sing 'I Hate You' now.

Anyway, 2NE1 won music bank yesterday.

LALALA. I knew they were strong.

SNSD wasn't even fighting for champion.HAHA. I'm not saying that SNSD isn't good. It's just I think that 2NE1 is so much stronger.

4 minute!!

2009-08-16T21:53:00.003+08:00

This group makes me wanna buy coloured leggings!!!!!!
Watch their vids and you're like WOWWWWWWWWW.SO BRIGHT.
A blog said they were uncoordinated.
BUT WHO CARES MAN.
I like!
I'm thinking of buying coloured leggings. Would that be impulse buying???

HOT ISSUEEEE~~~
hot it hot it hot it hot it i-i-i-i-i-i-issue

2NE1

2009-08-10T13:03:00.001+08:00

this 2NE1 video is cute~~~~

yea...I know that they aren't really pretty...(maybe except dara and bom?)
if you actually see their makeup-less pictures, you'll go like OMGGGGG.
yea yea...underneath all that makeup...
but who really cares? They aren't about looks anyway...
they're so confident and their music rocks ...

I love watching korean variety shows man.
totally make my day~~~

And now for the boring randomness that I post all the time.
If you don't wanna read, can just go away=.=
LOL.
ya know, sometimes it's abit scary when people read your blog and you don't know they're reading. it's like if it's something bad, you can't just vent it all out. That person might know. AND SHIT. If he/she does, then you'll be in such an awkward position.

like...Yilin reads my blog sometimes and I don't even know...
Hi yilin if you're reading((: ahnyeong hahseyo!!
chinguuuuu.... She's so mad about Super Junior. Yea, I like Super Junior... but I'm not that crazy over them. I'm over that craze-over-boybands stage already. Yea...I still go nuts when I watch them on arirang but definitely not like last time. hahahaha. actually I listen to 2pm more often:P
Anyway...yilin take care~~~let's hang out soon~~

every paragraph is random. there's no link so don't try to find one.

HAHA.

I dreamt of lyrical hip hop yesterday. OMGGG.
look...I think I'm deprived of dance that I dream of it!~~

I'm going to change my blogskin after exams. this one is so boring...

Sometimes I feel like I'm like MJ...
trying to build a wall around myself...like how he has neverland..I think I have mine too.
Studying banking made me sorta dislike banks somehow.
GOODNESS.
and I don't feel like I wanna further my studies cos...firstly, I don't wanna study anymore. It's tiring. Or maybe I feel it's tiring now cos...I'm sick of alot of things in my course. NO man..banking isn't my passion. I don't even know if I like it. I'm in my 3rd year and I'm talking about banking-is-not-what-I-really-like. OMGGGG. Secondly, I still wanna dance. I know somehow, some things you really love, you have to let go of it someday. BUT...do I have a reason to? like for example, you need to quit a performance because you've come down with a fever...that's a reason. I have no reason to quit dance. Non-dancers or rather people don't really love dance may not understand. Thank God some people do understand though, or I'd go mad.
and ya, the question comes to me always...how long can I dance? ARGH. I don't know... or rather I don't wanna know. Dance is like the only thing I have now that makes me feel like I'm useful. Or rather, it's like my soul.It's always like the last year of school that makes me so emo.
Like when I graduate, what am I going to do?! What should I do? If I really work in a bank, then dance how????If I dance, then after that, how??? Maybe it's too early too think....but I'm just superrrr ya know...frustrated at the questions that are coming into my head...

just fineeee oooooh

2009-08-04T18:15:00.002+08:00

BORING.

projects suck.

I don't care eh eh eh eh ehhhh~~~

can something interesting just happen??LOL.
there's only like 2 things now??? SDZ battle and...WAves 14.
that's all?!!
well, at least better than none.

NAPFA

2009-07-31T21:59:00.003+08:00

I GOT GOLD FOR NAPFA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAYYYYYYYYYYY!
WOWWWWWWWWWW.
and bell and I don't know how to get our free krumpler.

Went lunch with bin, louis and augustin today.
it feels really cool when all of us share our feelings about dance.
it's like family...somehow.
havent really shared this kindda stuff to M-FIG.
maybe steph and bell...but I don't think I have yet to have this kindda sharing 'sessions' with the other members....and of course...plus my own batch. maybe I did? ahhahah.

I think the day was BAD.
but now, I think it's not really bad.

AND.
oooooh.
I think I've got Yoobin's hair...or is it Sunmi? looks like a combination.
I'm a wonder girlllll~~~SIAO. zi high.

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

2009-07-26T12:57:00.002+08:00

LALALA.
went to watch Harry Potter yesterday!!!!
luckily the third row wasnt as bad as I expected.
Anyway, I haven't read the book and so I thought the movie was DAMN good.
Though I can still totally see that the conflict wasn't as strong.
Alot of love scenes...but they were all funny.

Couldn't tolerate Lavender at all...she's like all over Ron.
Feels like I wanna take my shoe at throw at the screen.
Poor Hermione..I feel her pain.
but at least in the end, Lavender was dumped.
and Ron's become really manly..it's like ahhhh~~~
hahahhaha.
you can't deny that alot of the guys are really handsome in the Half Blood Prince.
like the guy who's interested in Hermione....but he's just gross...UGH.
hahahha.
and Ginny is like steppin' on two boats lah!
Dean and Harry. I was like...wth!

I think Luna is dammnnnn cute(:
and i like her hair!!!!! she looks like a fairy!HAHA.

I think Draco's expression was superrrrrr classic!
I think he acted well in there. Bad but helpless expression.
nice man!

the part when Katie Bell got cursed was like super freaky...
especially when she suddenly got pulled up and then thrown down.
I had goosebumps. It's just cruel in a darn gross way.

and and...I cried superrrrrr badly when Dumbledore died.
So sad...He's like known to be a powerful wizard and he just died.
And stupid SNAPE...he just risked being thrown into Azkaban by using the death curse.

Just totally love the movie luhhh...
I so wanna watch again!!!!
hahhaha.

now back to projects!

and good job to moderners for their showcase! I just watched the videos on youtube...
sad I wasn't there...
haiiiiyyya